hidden || c.l √

二

3pm

the first thing i did when i went outside: i took a cigarette out of my pocket. he doesn't know that i am smoking, but i guess it's better. while i was opening the door to go outside, i already had the cigarette between my lips. "changbin!", said a familiar voice. it's hyunjin. a good friend. he always takes care of me when i'm in trouble. "you're smoking?", he barely screamed. "please hyunjin, i can explain." "you don't need to explain anything", he said while taking my hand and running away with me. "where are we going.", i questioned. i looked back, still with the cigarette between my lips, into felix teary eyes. "i'm sorry... i'm so sorry...", i whispered, but hyunjin didn't hear. "we're going to my house", he said strict. "why.. j-just let me go home..", i muttered. "no? definitely not." he opened the car door for me. "thanks", i said while looking down. i can't look into his eyes. i'm a little embarrassed. "now...", he took a deep breath, started the car and continued speaking, "why the fuck did you start that disgusting thing?" at first i didn't say anything. i didn't want to say anything wrong, but i needed to say something so i just said a blank "i don't know." "are you fucking kidding? are you-? oh god damit!", he screamed. "you know what i told you? you know that? i-i hate smoking. if you ever want to kiss someone, they will be disgusted. and you know what's even more important? you're heath. you're lungs will be completely black. you hear me? you. will. die." i started crying again. i just can't. "d-don't cry b-binnie.. please.. god.. don't cry babe." "how did you just call me?" "b-binnie..." "you called me babe..?" "changbinnie i'm sorry.. i won't ever call you like that again. i'm sorry." "i-it's fine. i don't mind", i said calmly.

i was so busy listening to hyunjin, that i almost forgot about felix. "fuck", i interrupted him. "what's wrong babe- i mean binnie.." "i forgot my phone in the cafe..." "hey, no problem", he said while parking the car. "just go already inside. i'm gonna go back and look for your phone", he said with a smile. "oh really.. thank you..", i said softly. so he opened the door for me, showed me his bedroom and went back to his car to drive back.