moonlight

Chapter 29

I huffed a last breath out and then started to see black spots in my vision. Damn it, I've got to stay awake! For my teammates, c'mon!

My effort of trying to stay awake didn't prevent my eyes to fall shut and the world around me to start shut itself out of my system.

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"Look, it's that Takeshi girl..."

"How can a Takeshi be like that? Look at her, all roughed up, what a disgrace."

"They give her so much false hope... she gets treated as if she would ever be on the same level as the boys her age, how pathetic."

"Did you know that her brother is that Ken'ichi?"

"No way! She's never gonna be something special when there's someone as great as Ken'ichi Takeshi! She should really stop her useless training and focus on something else!"

"I can hear you, you know..."

The group of people scurried away like mice who spotted a cat.

They are always like that, talking behind someone's back, but when they get confronted by that person, only a few people would step up and tell them something directly to their face. In my case, they are cowards.

Sometimes, I ask myself why I have to endure this, but I actually know the answer already, but still can't comprehend it.

Why is it me that has to suffer all the time? Can't I live a normal life without anyone pointing a finger at me and accusing me of things or saying some weird things about me?

Always training, the body treatments, the lack of sleep, the exhaustion, the punches everything is getting to me.

I can't feel my body anymore, it only stings when I think of it. Maybe a side effect of training? 

Maybe only pettiness.

I know others have harder lives, but why do I feel like mine is just as horrible.

I ask myself... What do I live for? Why was I born? Do I even have a purpose? Well, I wouldn't find out, well not just yet, I guess.

I know it's that person's fault for me to be like this. This horrible man who I call my brother. The man who was never there when I needed him, that Ken'ichi.His expressionless face was something that I always hated, as if he wanted to tell the world that they didn't deserve a reaction from him. Always acting cool and unresponsive.

If I hated it that much, why did I copy it though?

There is only one thing that is wonderful in my life and that would be Atsuko. At least she is there for me.

My cute little sister which I would protect with everything I have. The ray of sun which slips through the trees in an overgrown forest.