Life after him

CHAPTER 5:Broken heartrs

Now here I am running out of his place and sitting on a bench in some parks I don't even know where I am, with a heart shuttered into thousands of pieces and I just cant put myself together no matter what I do. Every little part of me is hurting and I do not know how to make it stop, why me out of all people? what have I done to deserve this? why did I fell in love in the first place? love hurt and it is not a joke, the very same depth that I love him with is the very same depth that I am hurting. I hate love and I will never fall in love again never again that is a promise I made to myself from today on I cant stand this pain its too much to handle its like there are piercing needles in my heart.

I didn't know when  I fell asleep until I hear someone waking me up

"My God Tina what are you doing here? Wake up Tina, Tina ,Tina" he call out my name while shaking me to wake up

"Arrgg WHAT! where am I?" I ask who ever the person was, it was dark and I just can't recognise their face and my surrounding oh wait, who the hell is waking me up and they know my name, oh my I look up but couldn't see him well since it was dark "Who are you and what am I doing here?" I ask so confused

"I will ask you the same question what are you doing here at night alone and you are sleeping in a public park with all those bad people in this world you should learn how to take care of yourself Tina and where is your sweet boyfriend anyways?" And that is when it hit me so hard it was Max my friend from campus and I don't have a boyfriend anymore 

"I am so sorry I must have fallen asleep because of crying ,,I ... I mean oh sorry would you mind dropping me off at my house or you don't have your car " I say with tears threatening out of my eyes life really suck
"No I didn't but I you can call Peter or Alma to pick you up" Oh God those two names they bring hurtful memories I don't even want to hear them  now

"No its okay I will hail a taxi " I say standing up I feel so weak and I trip on a stone and fall down 
"This doesn't look good at all give me your phone so I call Peter to come pick you up you can't take a taxi looking like this " he said while helping me to stand

"Can you not say that name again please" I sap at him and he suddenly left me on the ground and move away
"Okay I don't care what happened between you two but I am just trying to help you here"  he say in an angry voice but my pride is just too much

"You help when you want to and if you can't help me get a taxi then just go please" I say with tears in my eyes what is the use anyways? who care about me? no one does. My heart keeps breaking every single minute, I turn away lining on the bench

"Now you are being very stupid can I just call someone close even your best friend Alma " oh I despise that lady with every cell of my body, I just look down I really don't want to hear this
"I just came for a walk and happen to see someone alone on a bench and that happen to be you  just try to get home safe please its not safe out here at night " and with that he left, he sounded like a stressed someone, but what could be the matter? I am so fucked up, going through a heart break but still I care about other people I half laugh with a sniff at that while whipping away my tears although the keep on coming.

He walk away with his hands in his pockets I know some thing is going on with him for months now but I just can't tell what it is.

I start to look at my surrounding and then I saw the tree with a big trunk then I came to my realization that I was in the park where we had our first date. What a coincide, how did I end up being here ? "fate" I believe so but there is no way I am going back to him it's not happening at all, why do I have to end up to this place? with so many beautiful memories.
This is where he asked me to be his, this is where he told me that he love me it was the most amazing moment, this is where I started trusting him, but why, why would he do this?  Why do i still love him now? I loved him so much and I have never failed to show him that. Where did I go wrong? He loved me or maybe I thought so. I have so many questions without answers  and only two people have them right now and I hate them so much they have caused me pain that I can't handle.

I can remember telling Alma about that night and she seemed happy for me at least that is what it looked like, but little did i knew it was just an act of treachery,  my head is spinning right now and this is driving me crazy.

"I need to get out of this place now" I stumble but pick my self up and start walking toward the road to get a cab home, if my aunt is at home I will be in trouble today and I really don't want to deal with her right now.

After a few minutes I have been on the road  waiting for any taxi to stop for me, my head kept on spinning and can't focus where I was going till I hear a loud shrilling sound from a car with bright light blinding me

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