Life after him

CHAPTER 9: Lost hope

I got released from the hospital few days ago and I feel much better now, my cousin Alex have been there for me. I have not seen my aunt since I got released from the hospital and I know I expect the worse but I am prepared for whatever is to come.

Life in the city is mostly hard for us students we leave our family behind to make something through our studies an to build our futures or lives but life gives us chilies here.

Alma and I move to Windhoek a year after when our final results where released but since my mom could not trust me on my own and I didn't get a chance in the campus hostel, she send me to come live with my aunt.

I didn't know her by then, at first she was so sweet and all nice but later on she got tired of pretending and started showing her true colors and luckily Alex told me all about her and I was not surprised when she started unfolding out, thanks to that I have received home training and I don't really try to push or provoke elders is one thing my mother have taught me."Do the right thing, stand for the truth or what is right but never provoke an elder on purpose " she would say, I miss her though we talked through the phone when I got released from the hospital and she sounded worried and she was grateful that I am well.

"Here she comes, don't worry you will be fine" Alex say as he come and sat next to me in the couch.

"You know your mum Alex and you yourself know what she is capable of " I sigh and look away.

I still remember the nights she kicked Alex out of the house just because he got involved in a fight at school and when he try to explain his side of the story, she just kick him out of the house saying she can't keep criminals in her house, he lived in streets for weeks thanks to our neighbors they took him in for a week and come have a talk with her that's when she accept to listen to his story. So if she is capable of doing that to her own blood how about me a sister's child, I am prepared for whatever comes.

She come and put down her purse on the table and sat across me in the living room .
" So you had a boyfriend all this time in my house ha? Well that's a sign that you are grown enough than to live on your own, cause from today on you are moving out of my house I can't keep you, you have cause enough damage I don't know how much more you will cause if you stay in this house "she speak looking me in the eyes and I know she was dead serious.

Tears start rolling down my chicks on their own, I can't explain how I am feeling right now, I just can't even find words to say or defend myself.

" Aunt I know I made a mistake and I messed up really bad but I am sorry and I promise  its will never happen will you just give me another chance please I have no where else to go" I cry my eyes out, but I can see that nothing I say or do can change her mind.

"Oh missy you should have thought of that before, cause now I don't even know you anymore, you caused a death and I am forced to go attend a funeral which i hate the most just to represent you because of your recklessness behavior, and its all  because a boy now i guess you are going to live with him"

"Aunt it was a mistake and I am sorry for that I can't move out I have no where to go, I hardly know any other person in the city apart from you" I begged her but she have that evil smirk on her face.

" I seriously just can't get it, I can't believe you, boys, all that they do is to destroy you and your life, have your mother not taught you better?" And with that I just lost it no one talks bad about my mother because I know she is a good person and she have taught me better.

"Don't you dare aunt , do  you ever talk bad about my mother because she have nothing in this and yeah she taught me better than you know, I made a mistake and that's mine alone to blame not her,  yeah well that was not a mistake anyways I am old enough to have and get a boyfriend and thanks God I don't even have a kid , you had Alex when you where still in high school, have anyone ever judge you" I paused so I can breath I was so furious how can she think she have a right to drag my mother into this, I have so much respect for elders but she just stepped the line,and now I am not backing away or holding back this time, she have put me through a lot of stress before and I am not letting her do that this time.

"I have always respected you no matter how hard you try to push me, you have always provoked me, finding ways to get to me, but I have always stayed away from trouble always, but this is how you treat me? after all this is what I get" I can't stand this anymore I stand up go to my room and start crying there was no other hope for me in this house, not anymore.

She came and stand at my door with a disgusted look on her face, I wipe away my tears and look at her she look so angry so pissed of and who cares anyways  " look how pathetic you look, you don't have any right to talk back when I am talking and don't you ever talk about my history no one does that" I just stood up and start packing my bags.

"Just like no one talks bad about my mother because no one knows her story she is a good mother better than you are " I snap at her while shoving my clothes in a bag.

"We will see who will look for who where are you even going this night time?" And with that she left.

I pack all my belongings and call Alex to escort me out, we walk in silence to a nearby gas filling station.

" So what are you going to do from now "Alex ask with a worried face

" Stop worrying about me I am a grown someone and I can take care of myself care of my self, I will look for and apartment or something"

"How about tonight where are you going to sleep" he sound so sad and worried

" You should go home your mum will be upset if she happen to know that you are here with me" I sigh and take my bags form him.

"True I should go, please take care and keep I touch" he wave as he turn to go  back home.

I took out my phone to call one person that I can ask for help right now and hope he is not asleep its not that much late just ten past some few minutes. The phone started ringing but it when to voice mail, I try calling again then it was answered by a female voice.

"Sorry how can I help you ? " Wow that's much rude but I did not let it affect me.

"Oh hey where is Max ?" I ask with a calm voice.

"Max is not available now what do you want from him ? he is mine and mine alone so stay away from him ?" She say, and I almost laugh but I suppressed it

" Tell him that I need his help and its urgent please will you?" I say and hang up I don't want to listen to her and her voice anymore.

I take my bags and go in one of the toilets at the service station and lock myself in, I sat on the toilet seat and start thinking of what to do next. He was my very last hope now I am all alone.

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