Life after him

CHAPTER 13:The kiss

It's been days since I met Peter and Alma in town I am so lost I don't know how to explain my self, I feel like I hurting once again , like it was in the beginning. I have been I my room for like I don't know how long now , I have apologized to both Esther and Max for being so childish when they just wanted to help me. This is really my life after him , he has destroyed me I am not myself anymore.

I can't believe I was friends with Alma I mean best friend even and now we are just strangers or enemies to say, we shared everything and told each other secrets and sleep overs and all that we went through for us to turn out like this, I miss my best friend especially in times like this, she was suppose to be the one helping me get over Peter , not causing more dramas and trying to hurt my feelings more. I just really need someone to be here for me and tell me things will be okay, someone to just give me a tight hug in times like this.

Max open my bedroom door and take peek in.
" Hey how are you doing today ? I thought I should check up on you, it's been two days you know, without seeing you " he say while standing at my door, I could see worries in his eyes and I hate that I make him worry about me.

" I am okay , I don't want to be a burden on you Max, you have done more than enough for me " I say sitting up straight on my bed.

" How about a movie or movies? And maybe we can catch up a bit?" He ask still standing at my door

" Is Esther coming? I am terrified of her this days " I try to laugh but my tummy hurts, I must be hungry, I haven't had a proper meal in a while now. I thought I was getting better, I thought I was getting over him or maybe over them but the truth to be told I miss them I miss Peter I loved that guy and I miss the moments when he made me feel so special, I wish he wouldn't have done what he did.

" To earth Tina you are spacing out even when I am even here talking with you" he snap his fingers in front of me.

" Oh sorry, you were saying ?" I asked him facing him he was now seated on my bed next to me

" Esther is not coming we kinda had a disagreement, it's nothing to worry about, I think I should get you breakfast you seems hungry" he went out and left me thinking, did they had a disagreement because of me maybe?

Max came back with a plate of a toasted bread and some eggs and a mug of coffee, he knows very well how much I like coffee.

"Here you should eat this" he hand me the plate and look away he doesn't look good at all, before I could ask him, he rush out of my room it's like he was about to cry.

I ate my food and when I had enough energy I went out to look for Max but he wasn't in house and his car is no where to be seen. I decide to go for a walk around and later I come back but still no sign of him, where could he be? Maybe he went to Esther or maybe to friends, I made dinner and waited for him.

After scanning through the channels I found an interesting movie about a lady with alot of exs but still looking for that Mr right , I was laughing my ass of as she was denying his childhood friend saying they could never be more than friend while she was getting disappointed from one guy to another, a door open and Max came in, he looks the same as he left lucky enough he was not drunk, cause I can't deal with a drunk person right now .

" Hey where have you been? I cooked dinner " I ask him but he just pass by me saying he is not hungry. What is wrong with him?

I followed him in his room I knocked but there was no answer, then I knock again still no answer, I try opening the door and it opened and he was lying flat on his tummy on the bed , I just come in and take his shoes off and sit next to him.

" Hey what is going on ? " I ask him but he was just quite, I lay next to him looking him in the eyes, he just run his hands in his face and sit up straight.

" Esther wants to move in with me " that's all he said and look away.
" That might be a nice thing right ?" I asked him confused why is he acting like that if she is his girlfriend?

" Tina you move in with someone you love someone you are ready to go through life with and I am not sure about her I just don't know if I love her that much plus It will just bring problems with you here" I sit up straight and face him

" So why are you hesitating on telling her that you are not ready yet ? And what do you mean it will bring problems with me here ? I will stay away from you guys as much as possible or maybe I can move out if you want me to " I hold his hand just asure him that I am here for him.

" You don't understand  this Tina I care for you so much" he place his hand on my chin and make me look in his eyes and before I could think what he was doing he smash his lips on mine I froze for a second not knowing what was going on, his lips are so soft and taste so sweet that I started kissing him back, I could feel, something running in my veins and it feel so good that I can't stop myself from kissing him, his breath changing and so was mine, he stoped for a while and rest his head on mine.

Before I could register what just happened in my mind , he rolled me over and start kissing me again and this time he was squeezing my breasts , I could feel the need of more building up in me, I want to stop so much but I just can't.

" Tina ,       Oh Tina ,           Tina  please, I can't stop myself,    please Tina " he talk between kisses and he start kissing my neck, that is when I came back to my conscious and push him away, he fell on the floor and I just ran out of his room and lock my self in my room.

What the hell just happen in there ? He is my best friend for human sake why did I allow my self to do this ? why did I even do it? Why ?
I lay on my bed looking up and thinking everything that have happened from Peter to Alma the to Max and then Esther, oh my God what if Esther finds it out? Oh no I such a mess, who am I? I have been thinking how I am messed up and how my life sucks, till I drift to sleep.

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