Life after him

CHAPTER 8: Secrets

Max was just there on my hospital bed with me, I can feel that he want to say something but he is debating in his thoughts either to say it or not, he keeps on glancing at me with a sad smile.

"Okay stop looking at me like that you are freaking me out already, spill, what is going on?" I say looking at him with a serious face, he just smile and look away

"Some things a better, not said" and he sigh, and I got more confused.

"You really need to speak I don't know what it is but I hope that we can find a solution for it, can you just tell me please ?" I beg him as I was becoming impatient now.

"Its complicated and only if there could be a solution, its not easy at all I wish oh God no I can't do this " he say looking away.

" Okay now start talking already you are wasting time and you have assignments to be done so start talking already" I was not going to give up, not that easily.

"But I just wish you can find a place in you heart to forgive me same days, in your life" he sigh and muttered something that I did hear.

"I went through the same experience as you but it was the other way round,its too complicated and I deeply regret what I did and I am not proud of  it till this day " he paused for a few seconds before he continue

"I was Peter's best friend since we were very young  and we lived next door there at north, and we were like brothers so close that no one can ever separate us" he sigh and hold his head in his hands facing downward

Then it all came to me when Peter told me that he had a best friend too, that night the night I fell for him,but it get to me that the is a possibility that it was Max who did that, but why? There has to be a reason right ?he seems so kind and cool but how?  My thoughts are running up and down in my head trying  to figure out how and why, he continue with the story

"But I fell in love with someone, she was so sweet and kind, I had a crush on her since we were young but in my tenth grade, I was so shy and I couldn't approach her on my own so I send Peter to  tell her that I like her and she should meet with me someday so I can talk to her, but he betrayed me" he let out a sniff and wipe tears that where forming in his eyes I feel sorry for him he must have really liked the girl maybe.

"He lied to Priscilla that he himself like her and wanted to take her out on a date, and a you can see how charming he is so the girl fell for his trap and they started dating, for me with my sweet soft heart I fell for his words also he told me the girl didn't want me, cause am boring and of a low class, but choose him instead then I gave up, so I have watched the girl I have loved so much go out with my best friend for four whole month but later on he started talking bad  about her to me, I was tortured emotionally and psychologically but I could not bear the thought of loosing my best friend just because of a girl that will make me look like a coward" This was the saddest story ever, how can someone be so selfish to do something like that to his best friend?

"He kept on playing girls heart dating them for fun an just dumping them one after another , despite everything I was still his best friend we would hang out and do any other things together but I try not remember what happened, I counted our friendship first but the pain was still there"

" After high school he found someone who meant a world to him, they started dating and he fell in love but the girl was not into him, so after a few months the girl was getting tired of him but couldn't find a way to tell him so she came to me and we made a plan"

"She was my friend actually she still is Eva that's her name, so we made a plan if Peter goes out, when he comes back he should find us making out and pretending to be serious and act shocked and scared so he can think its real just let go of Eva I hesitated for a while before agreeing to it because I wanted to take revenge of what he did to me in high school and I thought that maybe he will do the same thing he usually does to other girls, we executed our plan and it worked Eva was set free and I got my revenge but I broke his heart and our friendship too, till to this day we are no more friends " he say  wiping his tears away I never new he has a soft spot also.

"So that is why you don't get along very well ? " I ask him as I scoot closer to him rubbing his back.

"I have never slept with Eva, we were and still are close friends but it was all a pretend just to scare Peter away but it was a ridiculous idea and I regret it Tina, I really do, we were so close and he was even sad that he has to go for his father's business while I go to university for full-time" he say sniffing and wiping his face

Max is in his final year of his degree in accounting and finance at the university of Namibia and I am in my second year doing my degree in education I love kids and I know I will make a good teacher some days, we became friends on the very first day I set my foot in that university he was kind and cool to me but thing change when Peter can into picture what a small world.

"Its okay, stop crying I know you did that for a good course although you didn't consider the outcome or the consequences of it" I reassure now.

"I am such a bad person how come your are not judging me for this ?" He look at me with puffy eyes but I can tell that he is feeling much better now.

"Its not right just to always judge people because, there is always a reason for every little thing we do, I understand your point here, besides we all make mistakes in life, and that does not give anyone a right to judge us we are human, so stop beating yourself hard you deserve to live" I say with a smile within a second he hug me so tight and can feel his body calming down.

"Thank you so much Tina you have taught me a lot in life, and thank you for being my friend even though I suck sometimes " he gave me that cute smile of his, and felt good for having someone around.

"What are friend for right ?" I smile and lean my head on his shoulder and fall asleep there, peacefully.