𝙥𝙚𝙖𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙨 𝙤𝙣 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙨𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙙 ༄

push the thoughts of you under the rug

the heartbeat fires rapid shots
into my brain
my pulse races to its own rhythm
too fast
it is all too fast
because when i am near you
i want to be anywhere else
a mention of your name
sends me into a panic
my mind hurries to clean up the mess
stuff the bad thoughts into their boxes
before they all escape
i wish we hadn't met
but i know
this is not the last time my heart will break
because of you
and your decision to kill your soul