𝙥𝙚𝙖𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙨 𝙤𝙣 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙨𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙙 ༄

somebody else

you look like somebody else
clean shaven
trimmed hair
you look like someone new
this new you
shoved its way into my brain
it played tricks on my mind
and i fell for them
even though i had fallen before
you play and play
and i feel your cold laugh on my neck
you look like somebody interesting
someone that captures people's attention
i want to scream at them
pay attention! do you see his eyes!
they glint maliciously
i know what will happen next
a new girl will get swooped up by his wings
feathery and black
and he will fly them to his nest
he treats her good
and then tells her he has dark thoughts
a dark past
me
but the girl is too far sucked in
to even scream for help

don't trust him
not the new him
not the old
the sickly feeling i get when i hear his name
shakes me to my core
i feel weak
i may need to lay down
the thought of him
brings choking gasps to my throat
because i am remembering
all the times i cried over those notes
all those times
i wish it was me who was going to die
bile rises from my stomach
i wish he never treated me good
so i couldn't fall into his flytrap
i couldn't save myself
because he nearly killed me
i can only hope
i can save the rest