Broadway Bound

Unexplainable

AN: BTW's the song above is asleep by the smiths, and it's beautiful. You guys should listen to it. It's basically what I thought of writing this whole chapter, so ya. And this chapter is really sad. Hope you like it...❤️
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I was in rehearsal when it happen.
I got a call from Bryan at the oddest time.
"Hey Bryan. Whats up?"
"Hey Sophia, I have to tell you something."
"What happen? Are you okay?!?" I began to yell through the phone.
"No. I'm okay."
I sighed.
"Then what's up bryan?"
"This is really hard to say." He started to sound like was going to cry.
"What's wrong?!?"
I yelled again.
"Anne- Anne she-she- got in a car accident."
My mouth stood open and I teared up.
By now everyone was looking at me wondering what was wrong.
"BUT SHELL BE OKAY RIGHT? PLEASE TELL ME SHE WILL BE OKAY!"
I yelled trying not to break down.
"We don't know. She's in critical condition."
"No no no. No no no. Why did this have to happen?"
"come home, I think it best you come home, okay."
"Okay."
I hanged up the phone, grabbed my coat and bag, and before anyone could ask me anything, I was out the door.
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I got home and Bryan was there on the couch, just sitting there thinking.
"Hey, any word for Anne's parents?" I said walking in taking of my jacket and going to Bryan for a hug, while also tearing up.
"Nope. But she said as soon as she hears something, she will let us know."
"Okay."
"Okay. Kiddo, go to bed. It's 11pm, i thinks it better you better you sleep."
"Okay."
I went upstairs.
I was only in the room for 20 minutes before the phone rang.
I opened the door but walked slowly towards the stairs, listening to Brian.
Then I heard him say "I'm so sorry."
and then i cried out.

Like if a pain had just came into my chest, that's how I felt. I fell to my knees and grabbed my head. I started screaming why.

Brian came up, and hugged me.
I felt like dying. Like just ending my life.

My pain was- unexplainable.
I couldn't handle it. I could taste the tears. I was rocking back and forth in Brians arms. I was bawling and out of control crying.

I began to calm down a bit. And left to my room. Bryan wanted to stay with me but I told him I wanted to be alone.
I laid down in my bed.
My bestfriend just died.

I grabbed my phone and head phones, went to spotify. I pressed my sad songs playlist and presses shuffle.
The first song: Say something By A great big world.
Second Song: Cry by Kelly Clarkson.
Those two songs killed me.
I just cried with the music playing; now playing skinny love by birdy.
I just put my hand over my mouth, and mumbled, "Why?"

I couldn't take this pain. I felt like I had just been shot directly in the heart.
I felt like nothing mattered.
Like I had just died.

Next song: Fix You by Coldplay.
I wished I was better friend. I wished that I had called her more. That we talked more.

Next Song: Last Hope By Paramore
Why did I ever think of recovery, I was stupid. I'm losing hope, just like the song says. But in this song, it says that they have a little more hope left.
I don't. I'm broken.

Next Song: Wake Me Up When September ends By Green Day.
More like wake me up when March ends.

Anne Hamilton died March 15 2014.
She died today.
My best friend died today.
I was dying. My tears streaming down my face where beginning to feel natural.

I felt like I had no hope left.
Like I had just been hit by a truck.
The rain that had gone away for a bit, just came back.
I felt like I was done.
Like I was over.

Last song: Asleep by the smiths.
That was the last song and it really killed me. Because the lyrics explained exactly how I feel.
I wanted to go. I wanted to leave this world. I didn't want to wake up in the morning. I wanted to die.