Broadway Bound

An Emotional Weekend

SATURDAY
"Hey, Sophia, wake up!" Yelled Bryan as he walked in my room.
He lit a light in my face from his phone and I was squinting.
"BRYAN!" I yelled covering my face with a pillow.
"C'mon it's our day in NYC!" He said hitting me in the face with my pillow.
"Ass." I said sitting up.
"Hey watch your language young lady, and get dressed so we can go.
"Fine." I said as he left.
I got up and looked at the clock.
It was about 9am, and me Bryan needed to have this Brother-Sister day.
I went to the bathroom, did all my stuff, got dressed.
I put on a cute hoodie with some jeans and vans.
It wasn't so cold, it being the end of January, but it was okay. It was about 40 degrees.
I went to the living room and Bryan had a hoodie with jeans.
When I he looked at me sadly.
"Wow, you and I had the same idea." He said looking at me.
"Well you know what they say great minds think alike." I said shrugging.
"Yup. Well! Get your coat! Come on!" He said clapping.
Why did he want to go so bad?
And then I remembered.
It was my mom's 4 year anniversary.
He wanted to spend it with me.
Bryan took mom's death super hard.
She was the only one who could calm down dad, and could calm down Bryan.
I was never a very violent person, being bullied and all, but Bryan was. He got angry very fast and it wasn't pretty.
But mom was very smooth and calm.
That's why I loved her.
My greatest memories were with her.
I wish she was back.
"Hey Sophia! Come on!"
I can't mention anything to Bryan today because it'll just make him seem sad, so I need to keep quiet.
I headed out with Bryan.
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"So what do you want to do my star?" Bryan said smiling at me.
"Well, we could go to a cool restaurant?" I said shrugging.
"Oh I know the perfect restaurant! It's amazing you'll love it." Bryan said grabbing my hand, and we went.
As we walked I began to think.
Bryan was acting so happy today for mom's anniversary.
I mean, he normally would stay so quiet every anniversary. Lock himself up in his room, not eat.
But I guess it's good he's moved on.
I haven't at all. I try to fake a smile every anniversary, but you can tell I looked so depressed.
We finally arrived to the restaurant, and I knew exactly where I was.
I was at Spotlight Diner.
The Spotlight Diner is the biggest restaurant in NYC broadway world.
It's a restaurant where while you eat, the waiters perform. I've heard good about it, I think it's going to be a good experience.
"Here we are! The Spotlight Diner!" Bryan said waving his hand up.
"Table for two please." Bryan said as we walked in.
I walked to the table holding Bryan's hand, and people stared staring at me.
And then I remembered it.
Broadwayworld.com released the new cast for the Frozen, and this being a popular hangout for broadway people, half of the people in here knew who I was.
We sat on the first floor right next in the stage, and it looked really cool.
"Hi I'm Whitney and I will be your waiter today! Welcome to the Spotlight Diner." A really nice girl came and said.
She was pretty and had long silky hair.
"Hello." Bryan said smiling.
"So what beverages do you guys want?"
"I'll have a Pepsi." Bryan said.
"And you Sophia?" He asked.
"I'll have the same." I said smiling.
"Ok I'll be back with your drinks."
This place was full of people.

As we ate, they sang more songs, songs like, Journey, The Beatles, Queen, and many more classics.
While we were eating, me and Bryan were catching up.
We went talking about Anne, to conversations about old broadway shows, debates about books.
We were nerds.
I felt like Bryan was using me to get over mom. I was fine with that, because we both needed something to get over her passing.
We had each other. But I still didn't say anything.
We finally finished eating and we left.
We then decided to just walk around NYC.
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We got cold so we just decided to go home. It was about 5:30.
We went to Toys R Us in 42st. It was amazing.
We walked around Central Park and went to all the NYC landmarks, it was the best, and while all of this, Bryan didn't even peep about mom.
So have I, I haven't said a word.
I was starting to think he forgot.
When we finally got home, we took off our coats and I say down on the couch and turned on the TV. Bryan started to make hot chocolate.
"So did you enjoy our little day?" He asked as he made the hot chocolate.
"Yes, a lot!" I said falsely smiling.
"Awesome!" He said.
I couldn't hold t in anymore. I had to blurt it out.
"Bryan! It's mom's 4th anniversary and you haven't said anything! Did you even remember?!?" I yelled out and then covering my mouth really fast.
Why did I just say that?
"Um." He said. His eyes started to get watery.
"Look. Sophia, I wanted to keep you happy today." He started.
"You with your broadway, I didn't want you to focus on it because then you would become depressed again." He said holding back tears.
Then, I just broke down.
Bryan came and hugged me, because he knew I was hurt.
The truth is, when Mom died I became depressed.
Here's the story.
When Mom died, it was hard for my family. My dad loved her a lot?
Heck, I think that she was the only person he loved.
We were all close to her, and she was the savior of our family.
So when she went, it was devastating.
My dad started drinking, doing drugs and, just becoming the trash dad he is today.
As for Bryan, he was 18 when Mom died.
He was sad all the time, and it wasn't a pretty site.
He was only nice with me.
As for me being 13, cry. My mom was my angel, but I tried to not cry, I came close to crying many tears in school. But I always wanted to stay strong for Bryan.

When Bryan started getting ready for college, I became super depressed.
I didn't eat, talk, and I barely moved from my house.
And worst of all, I began to cut myself.
I even became suicidal.
I imagined myself jumping off of bridges many times.
I just wanted life to end.
One time, I felt so alone. My mom's 5 year anniversary was the same week.
I found a rope in the garage, I decided to kill myself.
As I tied the rope, Bryan walked into the house, and stopped me.
It was an emotional scar for both of us.
Now I'm here today, thanks to him, and that's why we have a really good relationship.
I have scars on my arm, thighs and stomach.
But, now I'm better.
So my mom's death was harder on me than anyone else.
And right now I was bawling my eyes out.
"It's okay. I know you haven't let out your feelings, but it's okay." Bryan said, rubbing my back.
"I know, I just miss her." I said wiping my tears.
"Come on. She's in a better place. Let's drink some hot chocolate and watch cartoons, that cheers you up." He said.
"Okay. You know always how to make me happy."
We then spent the whole night just watching cartoons and drinking hot chocolate.
It was the best. I felt happy.
Tomorrow is also going to be an adventurous day.
Date with Luke.
I'm so ready.
Or not.
I don't even know.