Broadway Bound

Journal Entry #1

AUTHORS NOTE: So for this chapter in doing something different and making a journal entry from sophia to see how she really feels about all this and get to know her a little better, and I want to do more of these little entries, but we will see. This is kind of foreshadowing the next chapter, which i published with this, and once you get to the next chapter you'll see. Enjoy!
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Dear Journal,

So yesterday I told Luke all the deep stuff. I told him I felt like I was on the road to recovery. That I was getting over my depression.

I was lying.

I thought that being on Broadway and finally achieving my dreams would make me feel happier, and finally recover. But, it just made it worse.

These rehearsals are getting to my head and Melissa makes it so much worse.

I don't know what to do.

I guess I could always go back to self harm.

But I vowed myself I wouldn't.

I can't.

Anne would know what to do. She always cheered me up when I was down.

I try to call her but she won't pick up. I miss her though. I km call her tomorrow.

Right now I feel so alone and I don't good.

I feel like- I need to jump across a cliff to the other side for happiness, but I'm too scared to jump.

I'm scared. I'm scared I will not keep my vow and break down. I don't know what to do. I'm lost. I'm hopeless.

I'm sad.

X Sophie X

Authors note from: 1/28/15

I posted this chapter like idk a few months ago if u see the date that I'm in the future, oooo cool.
But no I'm writing here if you're reading this, I said that I'd be make more of these, but ain't nobody got time for that, wow that's old. Anyways, this is just a like two time thing if I do it a second time I'll announce it but besides that I won't do it like naturally. Anyways bye, keep reading❤️