WAYWARD 2: PERVERSE (Discontinued)

seven

Luke's P.O.V

"goddammit!" I shouted, which made it echo the whole flat.

It feels like I'm being haunted by my own actions.

It has been a fucking week. A fucking week and I still haven't talked to her!

I feel like shit. No I feel more than like shit!

I'm so stupid! God! How can I be so fucking stupid?!

I never should've let her go, that moment when I told her that I don't want to see her again, she was walking away, I wanted to hug her and just tell her to forget about it and we could just start again. But, fucking alcohol was the one doing all the talking!

Everyday this whole week I did nothing but stalk her, watch her eat her lunch with her work mates, and leave to go home with Connor.

I never saw her smile like before.

I know it was also my fault for not listening to her, for getting mad right away, she was right in front of me, begging me to stay but what did I do? I fucking pushed her away.

Now she's gone and I feel nothing.

I am laying here on the bed, all alone, reminiscing everything we did together.

All I know is that she's alright and that she's staying at Connor's. I know that I should be jealous and drag her out of there and tell her that she should just stay here in this flat because I fucking bought it for her. But I know that I can't, the seed is already sown and its my fault for letting her go.

Now here I am, looking like a lost puppy who's mustache and beard is scattered all around my face, with this huge bags under my eyes.

I need to get a grip of myself and talk to her. I had my space and maybe she still wants me back.

I was about to step into the bathroom when my phone started ringing.

Caller ID: Ashton

"Yeah?" I muttered, my voice hoarse.

"Were having a Halloween party" Ashton beamed,

"In the middle of November?" I scoffed,

"Shut up and just come over!" He exclaimed ending the call before I could say another word.

I groaned as I step into the shower and let the hot water run down my body.

Maybe I should go, make an appearance and see her? I know she's going to be there, maybe talk to her. Okay, not talk to her but maybe just take a glimpse of her face.

Yes, I will do that.

I quickly dressed up and made my way out.

The drive was quick and I could hear my heartbeat beating on my head. Why am I feeling like this all of a sudden?

I parked the car near the frat house and made my way in.

As usual, these kids still threw this kind of party.

"Hey man! How you doing?" (A/n: omg imagine ash asking this like how he asked calum during the bts of amnesia lmaoo) Ashton slurred,

"I'm doing fine-" I mumbled ignoring him and tried my best to finding her.

"You're looking for Phoebe" He laughed out loud, "She's with Calum at the back" He patted my shoulder.

I didn't say another word and made my way outside.

Only to find, Calum and Scott all over each other.

I didn't know what to say or do. I wasn't in the right mind. I can't pick a fight with Calum for seeing them like this. I pushed her away and I don't have her heart anymore.

I can feel myself choking, all the oxygen inside my body are being squeezed out. I couldn't breathe.

I should just walk away. I guess I'm too late.

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Shit I'm so done