A World of Silence

Chapter 14 - Relapse

Levi POV
After I spoke in front of more than one person at once for the first time in a long time to say I was nervous would be an understatement.

I looked down afraid to meet anyone's eyes until the girl sitting next to me held my hand. "That's okay. But I would like to meet your friend Roman. Just to see if he's good enough for you."

I nodded unsure what else to do.

"My name is Malia. I know you're probably too nervous to ask my name but that's okay. Most people are too nervous to talk to me. My beauty is just that strong. It took Harry here a good three weeks before he asked me out. And even though I said no and broke his heart he still loves me." She grinned wide. I held her hand as tightly as she did and gave her a smile small.

I felt like I made a friend. I want more of those because I only have two which are Roman and Noah and they don't go to school with me.

I was too nervous to say anything else the whole dinner so I just ate my dinner in silence while everyone talked and tried to get me to talk. The whole time I held Malia's hand. It was a good thing that she was left handed cause I never wanted to let her warm hand go.

She's really pretty but Roman is prettier. I love Roman's hair too. And his hugs are really warm too. I sighed in thought of how much I missed Roman. Thinking about the last time I saw Roman brought up memories of Lucas and instantly made me frown.

I hate Lucas. He's so mean to me. But at the same time I don't think I could ever hate anyone. Actually scratch that I definitely do hate people. My family and Lucas. The only person I will ever love is Roman and maybe my new family depending on if they're nice to me. So far they seem nice, especially Leon.

After dinner was over I went straight to my room and for once I didn't lock the door in fear of my brothers coming in. I actually couldn't even sleep with the lights off. But I knew that if I woke up in the middle of the night with my lights on I would probably panic thinking someone came in my room looking for something because my dumb self would forget I left it on. Living in a house with siblings like mine you seem to panic a lot. It's very stressful and I have one or two bald spots because of it.

I couldn't seem to fall asleep yet so I got out of bed and decided to explore. I knew I wasn't supposed to but my room got boring really quick.

I opened the first door on my right and wanted to burn my eyes as I saw Harry and Malia doing the "deed" completely naked. They looked up at me in shock and let out a bunch of curse words.

I ran to the bathroom as I vomited into the toilet. Two minutes later Malia and Harry burst into the bathroom talking faster than I could read lips.

I pointed to my ears to try to give them a hint but they ignored me and kept talking. It felt like an endless cycle of no one listening to me.

I let out a scream in frustration and they finally looked at me. I pointed to my ears aggressively as tears flowed down my face. I was so tired of no one understanding me.

Malia finally understood and got on my level to speak to me. She rubbed my back which made me jump just to relax into her hand. But then remembering where that hand was before I turned back to the toilet and puked again pushing her hand off me.

Harry got down in front of my face and gripped my shoulder tightly as if to make sure I was paying attention to him. "Levi, you can't tell anyone about what you saw. Okay? It has to be our secret because Dad doesn't know and Malia's parents would kill me. And you don't want to see me dead would you?" His words made it seem like he was being nice but his piercing blue eyes and tight grip told me that he was threatening me.