Her Broken Heart

3

It's been three days since I saw him I can't stop thinking about his blue eyes I wish I could be near him I wish I wasn't too scared to even be near a man then maybe I don't know what but I just want to know more about him I can''t even take Josie to school I'm currently outside of my therapist office I just started going today I need to try to ease this anxiety I don't want to be afraid anymore I walked into the door and walked up to the front desk "I have an appointment with Dr. Anderson"

"And what is your name"

"Avalon"

"Ahh yes go on the elevator third floor they'll be a receptionist there to guide you to her office"

"Thank you"

I walked into the elevator pressed the third floor I walked out the elevator and I immediately saw the receptionist I walked up to the desk telling her I have an appointment with Dr. Anderson she guided me to the office I knocked on the door and entered her office when she told me to come in

"Come on in Avalon"

I walked in and sat on one of the chairs she sat down on one in front of me "your scared"

"No"

"Then why are you here"

"Ok fine I'm scared after"

"After what.... you can tell me were all friendly here I made sure no males come on the days your here"

"After I was raped I didn't know what to do I don't let any man come near me I can't even take my own daughter to school"

"Well that's a good start why don't you start by taking your daughter to school"

"Because there's so many men there dropping off their kids I don't know if I can do that"

"Well that's your homework starting tomorrow you need to take your daughter to school everyday you need to walk her to the school door"

"The door why can't I stay in the car"

"Because this will help you warm up to men just try"

"Very well I'll try"

"Good well Avalon it looks like our session is over until tomorrow when I see you again I hope you can tell me about taking your daughter to school"

After I bid my goodbyes to her go in the elevator pressed the button to go down as I waited I felt scared I didn't know how tomorrow will be how can I be so afraid to take my own daughter to school I just hope one day that I can take her to school without being scared I walked out of the elevator waving goodby to the receptionist I climbed In my car and drove home I have no work for the week I finished all my shoots last week

I walked in the house closed the door I sat on the couch feeling worn out how could one therapy session make me feel this tired I wonder how I will feel by Friday yes I'm going to therapy everyday of the week she'll give me an evaluation every Friday to see whether or not I need to still go to sessions with her I didn't notice how tired I was until I drifted off to sleep

I woke up to the sound of someone knocking on the door I stood up rubbing the sleep out of my eyes I opened the door without looking to see the same blue eyes from three days ago

"w-wh-what are you doing here"

"I don't know I really wanted to see you"

"Why I don't know you"

"Look I like you, I mean I really like you but... your scared of me and I want to know why"

"I can't tell you why something happened to me in my past and all I can tell you is it made me terrified of men it's not just you it's all men"

"Well let me help you look I want to date you but we can start off as friends if you let me"

"Ok but there are rules"

"I'm ok with rules"

"Rule number one no touching you can't touch me at all It freaks me out"

"Got it no touching"

"Rule number two you need to call me before you show up you can't just come without informing me"

"I don't have your number"

"Give me your phone"

I dialed my number calling my phone "there now we both have each other's phone number"

"And rule number three my daughter is my top priority so if she doesn't like you than you have to leave"

"Deal let's start over I'm Sebastian"

"Avalon"

"It must be handful juggling work taking your daughter to school and whatever dance classes or whatever little girls do on their free time"

"No it can be tough but her nanny takes her to school but according to my therapist I need to move on from what happened so I'm taking her to school every morning"

"You go to therapy"

"Yeah I'm tying to move on I don't want to be afraid anymore so I'm trying"

"If you need anyone to talk to I'll always be here for you"

"Thank you I'll be for you too"

He smiled and I couldn't take my eyes off of him I don't know why but I have this sudden urgency of need like I need him I don't know I just hope one day maybe we can be more than friends

"Your so beautiful Ava"

"No I'm not"

"Yes you are and when you aren't scared of me I'm going to make you mine"

I couldn't help but feel happy that he wants me to be his I just know one thing I want him to me mine too and I hope it's sooner than later