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6 weeks later FEBRUARY
It's been over a month since the accident and my main goal was to move on from it. However I couldn't when people kept bringing it up and asking how I was doing
"You really want to know how I'm doing?" I asked Gina my new therapist
I shook my head pushing the tears out my eyes with the napkins that she had laid out on the table
"Of course I do" she responded
" I'm disgusted with myself I'm angry I'm scared to sleep alone I'm frustrated My boyfriend is scared to touch me because he didn't want to trigger bad memories I want to look in the mirror and feel beautiful again. And I don't want to flinch every time Gianni reaches for me or everyone Gianna drops a toy on the tile" I cried frustrated with my feelings.
She sighed "You know all the this is normal Ezra. You were in a tragic horrific accident not too long ago so it is perfectly fine to feel this way."
She slid a box of tissues to me "How about this let's focus on doing one thing everyday that makes you truly happy she slid me over a journal I want you to write in this everyday all your emotions good and bad and bring it to me every week."
I nodded taking the book and sliding it in my purse. It's worth a try.
"Let's meet the Same time next week?" She asked standing up
I nodded again and shook her hand before making my way out
As I slid in my car I began to think of ways to get back to my old self
First step was to get my hair and nails done so I did that first
It took about 4 hours to complete but after I was satisfied
After having my fun I made my way back to Giannis house. His car was in the driveway so I knew that he was home.
I walked in to a quiet house and immediately got suspicious. Once I made it to his room I saw them both asleep in the bed. I smiled to myself taking a picture and decided that this would be a good time to journal.
I made my way back down to the kitchen and pulled out my things.
I don't want to be looked at as different nor do I want people to pity me. I just want to fee love and give it. I want to grow to become an amazing wife and mother. A women who does not sulk I'm her battles but lives through them. I will not allow this tradition to become my reality.
Ezra
After finishing this up I Began to start looking at buildings for my agency, a few spared my interest but screamed "the one"
I heard footsteps coming towards me and turned to see G stretching and rubbing his stomach. He kissed my lips
"What you on? You look good as hell" he said staring me down
"Thanks babe, Just looking at possible buildings for my agency." I turned the MacBook towards him and he scrolled
"These are nice babe" he said nodding
"Yeah I think so to, you hungry"
"Little bit, wanna go out for pizza! We can take Gigi." He said getting excited like a child
I giggled "Sounds good I'll go change."
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We pulled up to the little Italy and I was excited to eat because I was starving. Gianni and Gianna were dressed the same as usual, I swear he loved to dress her as a boy
We found a seat rather quickly and got situated
"Gigi what type of pizza do you want" I asked
"Peppi!" She yelled and I giggled
"You mean pepperoni Gigi?" I asked
"Yes" she nodded
"I want the meat explosion" Gianni said rubbing his hands together
The waitress came to take our orders and drinks so we just chatted while waiting for our pizza
"How was therapy?" Gianni asked
"It was really good I can't wait to go back" I smiled
"That's good to hear" he said smiling back
I grabbed his hand. "Thank you for being here for me baby"
He kissed my lips a few times I love you girl I'm gone always be here
"Ewwwwww daddy!!"
We pulled away and laughed at Gigi as she covered her eyes
Soon after the pizzas came and we dug in just laughing and talking just like old times and I loved it
This is all I wanted.
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