Katniss and Peeta: For you

So much wrong, going on outside

Katniss POV

That night I dream of my family, I see my mother, Prim and my father in the distance, I continue to run towards them but they continue to movie farther away, without moving their feet.  I wake up feeling exhausted.

Peeta POV

The weather the next day seems to match our mood. The rain pounds on the windows and the winds push tree branches against the house.

Katniss and I find Effie sipping hot cocoa on the couch. "Morning Effie." I say softly.

"Morning you two," Effie says, standing up. "I packed some things for you."

"How'd you know we were going?" I ask.

"Plutarch visited me last night." Effie responds. "He said you might be heading out for a few days, for an interview."

"Are you okay with us going?" Katniss asks nervously. "We can stay if you want."

"Do you two want to go?" Effie asks.

"Not really." I say.

"Then why are you going?" Effie questions. "It can't be because you miss the limelight."

"Maybe we just miss our friends," Katniss suggests.

Effie shakes her head. "Katniss please, I may not be Haymitch, but I know you well enough. You're not going to meet up with friends."

"I want to them that I'm okay." Katniss says, her voice muted. "I want to show them that I'm still me,  I'm not broken."

"Your not broken!" I  say angrily. Katniss simply turns away from me.

"And you Peeta?" Effie asks, ignoring my outburst. "Why are you going?"

I shrug. "I dunno." I mutter.

"That's not good enough Peeta." Effie says. "Answer me."

"You sound like our teachers from school." I say, rubbing my brow. "I guess I just..."

"Just what?" Effie prods.

"I want to get over my fear" I mumble. "I don't want to let the capital own me anymore."

"They don't own you Peeta." Katniss says fiercely.

"Last time I needed your help to walk up stares, because I was so scared." I say sadly.

"And I still need you to calm me after nightmares." I reply

"I want to get over my fear." I say angrily. "I don't need a reason, I'm going, end of story."

"Okay." Katniss says, raising her hands. "I'm sorry Peeta, you're right. I'm glad we're doing this together."

I smile softly at her. 

"Come,"Effie says. "I'll walk you to the station."

We walk quietly towards the station, I notice people staring at us as we walk with our bags. Probably wondering if we're leaving for good.

Effie hugs us tightly when we arrive. "Stay together." She instructs, her face hidden from us. 

"Promise us that you'll  if  anything happens, you'll call us right away." Katniss says urgently, gripping Effie's shoulders.

"Of course." Effie says, hugging Katniss again.

Effie comes and hugs me again, "Be there for her." Effie whispers quietly. "She'll want to be strong for you, but she'll be hurting too."