The Misfit [Irwin]

2.1 Time together&secrets

An: First off I wanted to apologize for how shit this book had been getting but I promise I'm going to be giving it more attention. It will get better I promise.
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The past few days went by too quickly. I can't stand the fact that I actually have to leave. I have to leave him. The boy who says he loves me.

Our days together were spent running around London and eating lots of different foods. But when it wasn't all of us together Ashton and I spent our time together in our hotel room.
We were laying in bed when he finally spoke "I can't believe you're leaving."

"I know."
"Stay with me."

"Ashton you know I would. But I have school and midterms."

"Fuck midterms who needs school anyway." He smiled at me.

"Well not all of us can drop out of school and become a successful band, now can we?"

"You think I'm successful?" He smirked down at me grabbing my sides giving them a light squeeze. "Shut up Irwin." I smirked at him. "Make me" he said rolling over so be was on top of me.
He kept looking at me.

"You're so damn beautiful." I tried to roll away from him but he grabbed my arms and pinned them down against the pillow. "I don't think so." He smirked and kissed me again. He pulled away and looked at me up and down. "Em, what are these?" He asked referring to the scars on my arm.

Since our date I had put on my bracelets, but not all of them. He liked it when I didn't wear all of them. "They're nothing, don't worry about it." I said as his grip loosed on me and I pushed him off me and stood up.
"They obviously aren't nothing Em." He said as he walks over to me. "Take off the rest."
"Why?"

"So I can see that's why."

"Why would you want to see them, you're just going to treat me differently once you see them, just like Alex and Kris did."

"They know? You know what that's not important" he said walking over and grabbing my arm. I snapped my arm out of his grasp. "What are you doing?" I yelled at him.

"I want to see how many times you needed me and I didn't see it." He grabbed my arm and kissed the scars. I began to cry at the sight of the tears rolling down his precious face and at that moment I knew I couldn't do this to him. I pulled my arm away from him and his big doe eyes found there way to mine.

"Ashton I-"

"Em please-"

"You know what I can't do this anymore."

"What?"

"Ashton all I'm doing is hurting you, do you see yourself. I don't want to do this to you."

"Are you kidding me? I love you. You can't just push me away after all that we have been through Em. I love you."

"That's why I have to leave Ashton you shouldn't love me and I shouldn't love you."

"Em please don't do this."

"I'm sorry." I said to him as I grabbed my bag and walked to the door. I was walking out of the door when I felt soothing grab my hand.

"Please stay." I looked back and found his big hazel eyes looking back into mind. "I love you Ashton and that's why I have to leave you. I'm sorry." I said as I walked to Kris and Michael's room. I knocked on the door and it swung open and I came face to face with Kris.

"Em hey- are you okay?" I shook my head and broke down in the hallway of the hotel in Kris's arms.
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Whoa. I honestly didn't mean this to be so heavy. Ops. Okay sorry. But um it's gonna get worse before it gets better so hey. Sorry but thank you for reading please vote and comment!
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