The Misfit [Irwin]

2.0 dinner&first times

"You brought that outfit I sent you right?"

"Of course I did." I responded as I tuned around and saw ashton shimmy out of his pants. "Well come on get it on, we have places to go."

"Okay calm yourself." I said walking over to the closet and pulling out the dress he sent me. I pulled off my clothing and turned around as a felt a hand snake around my waist. "God you're so beautiful." He said as he laid a kiss to my collar bone. I smiled at him and pushed him off me so he landed on the bed.

I smirked at him running my eyes over his body and then I turned on my heel and walked to the bathroom. I began to put on my makeup. I was in the middle of putting on my eyeshadow when Ashton walked into the bathroom.

"Are you going to wear all those bracelets out?"

"Well I was planning on it."

"Come on Em, I've never seen you without them. one night."

"Ashton no." There were many reasons why I was saying no. Not just because it covered the scars and cuts I wanted to hide from the world but also because they were apart of me. I didn't feel myself without them. They all held a story I liked to keep close to me.

"Just one night. Please babe please." He whined as he walked over and placed a kiss on my lips and gave me a sad puppy dog face. "Fine one night." I said "now go I have to get ready." He placed another kiss on my lips and threw his hands up and walked away.

I finished my makeup not to much not to little. The perfect amount for me. I put on my dress then my jewelry and then it was time to take off my many of bracelets. One at a time I peeled them off and one by one they revealed new and old scars. God I hated what I did to myself but I couldn't stop. I took off all my bracelets and looked down at my arms. Some cuts I could cover so I did but the newer ones from the other day I couldn't. I would just have to hide them to the best of my ability.

I looked at myself in the mirror and was pleased with what I saw for the most part. I walked out of the bathroom and back into the room to find Ashton standing there in his suit. He looked amazing. He smiled at me and said "you look beautiful." I smiled back at him "are you ready to go?"

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We made our way to the restaurant and found our seats. We had placed our orders and I handed the menu back to the waitress and looked over to ashton who was watching me. "What?"

"Nothing, can a boyfriend just not look at his beautiful girlfriend?"

"No he can't." I gave him a playful smile.

"Well I am, so what are you going to do about it?"

"Hmm you ll have to wait till later to find out baby." He threw his head back and groaned a little, as I sat there smiling at him.

Dinner went by to fast for my liking. I loved sitting there and being able to talk to ashton for hours and being able to make him smile and giggle. He made me happy.

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We made our way back to the hotel room but before stopping at our own room we went to check on the guys. I knocked on the door to come face to face with a half naked Kris. "Hey- oh my god where are the rest of your clothes?"

"Well um Em, I know you're a virgin but figure it out."

"Wait is there a girl in-"

"Kris come back here." I was cut off by the sound of Michaels voice.

All I did was smile at Kris and he shut the door on my face. I walked over to the other room where I found Ashton standing at the door talking to Alex, as I walked closer Alex shut the door and Ashton turned around. "Do I want to know?" I asked.

"They're playing video games." He smiled at me.

I nodded my head at him. "What about those two?" He asked. "Oh um they're doing the same." I replied. We walked back to our room hand in hand.

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Ashton opened the door and I walked inside. A jolt struck through my body as he pushed me up against the wall and began to kiss my lips in a fiery passion. He whispered "jump" and I did as I was told and he carried me over to the bed.

He landed on top of me and I tugged at the bottom of his shirt to say I want it off and he broke the kiss to pull it off. I felt his hands go behind my back as he found the zipper of my dress and pulled it down. He pulled away and looked at me as to ask for permission to take the dress off, I nodded at him and he pulled the straps off my shoulders.

"Are you sure?" He looks down to me his eyes filled with love and care.

"Yes." I said and he reattached our lips. He pulled the rest of my dress of not breaking the kiss. I undid his belt and his pants and pulled them down his legs before he helped me by pulling them the rest of the way off.

He looked down at my body and ran his hands up and down my sides whispering "you're so god damn beautiful." I smiled at him and I knew I was blushing but thank god the room was dark. He began kissing my neck and sucking and biting causing a moan to escape my lips. I heard him whisper "that's right moan for daddy." Then he stopped in his tracks and just laid his head in the crook of my neck.

"Oh my god I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to say that. God I'm such a looser." I pulled his face back to mine and kissed him again. Then said "daddy don't stop." That's what drove him over the edge and he pulled out every trick in the book. When he reached my underwear he looked at me once again and asked "you're really sure?" I looked at him and said "yes." He smiled and pulled down my underwear and pushed inside of me.

The pressure was overwhelming and to be honest it did hurt. A lot. But he was carful with me. He kept asking if I was okay and if I wanted him to stop, but I didn't. I had never felt this close to anyone in my life and I loved the feeling of having him right here, Our hearts beating as one.

"I love you." He whispered to me as he held me in his arms. Those three words I had been waiting for someone to say my whole life he said. He said them.

"I love you too." He kissed the top of my head and we feel asleep in each others arms.

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