Each others Love (Nian)

Heart break

We speed to the hospital. Normally I would go on about getting killed or that we shouldn't be in a car crash but that seemed a little wrong as we were seeing someone who had just been in one. The negative thoughts never left my head in fact the closer we got to the hospital the louder they got. I wanted to scream to shut them up but that didn't seem the right thing to do either. We arrived a few minutes later. We parked the car and ran into the hospital and was greeted by Candice.

"OMG Nina follow me" She says frantically and then turns around. I do as she says and follow her. I don't care of Ben is behind me or not all O care about is that I see Ian.

After a load of turning corners and walking down long corridors Candice stopped.

"Ian's in there" she pointed "Go in visiting times still on, his mums in there right now but she'll give you some space." She nods as I turn to go in. I open the door slowly and see the thing that breaks my heart. Ian was laying down on his bed the heart monitor going at a steady rate. They always scared me. It's like they were made to make you think it's going to stop. His face was pale and his lips slightly parted. It was my Ian.

"I wondered when you would come" The voice scares me and I look up and see Edna, Ian's mum.

"Yeah, I was a little late getting the message." I say back.

She nods. "It's horrible isn't it? Seeing him like this. Thinking about if he can hear you or not or if it's just like he's sleeping." she shakes her head "I mean look at him. My Ian, Our Ian" She starts crying and I go over and give her a hug. She cries into me and it takes a lot to not join in. I start to rub her back and she pulls away and walks toward the door. "You changed him for the better Nina, he loves you. Spend sometime with his alone, his dads out here somewhere" she shakes her head and smiles a little before walking out and leaving me alone. I walk to sit on the chair by Ian's bed.

I stay silent for a while and then decide to speak. "You know, I'm not really sure what to say to you, which is funny as your unconscious and I have loads to say when you are conscious. I guess I'm not really in the mood for talking right now. I'm not sure if your hearing this or not or I'm just talking for the sake of talking but I love you. I do. I think those words are said to much and their meaning goes a little but when I say it I really mean it and it's scary you know because moments like this remind me how easy it is to lose you. I can't deal with that. So I guess this is me saying please stay strong and don't leave me here as I'm not strong enough to live with out you."

With that all said I blink and let a tear fall. It falls on his hand and I'm expecting something magical and like Disney to happen like he will come back to consciousness because of my magic tears but it's real life so that doesn't happen.

"You really love him don't you?" a voice behind me says. I jump and turn around and blink twice to see if I saw right.

"Amy?"

"Yes, sorry I'm here and I know I shouldn't be but I heard and I had to see of he's okay and oddly enough I was curious how you were." she smiles a little.

"Well I'm not any good" I reply not knowing what to say.

"Look I know we don't get on... at all and we never will but I'm sorry okay, I sorry I was the one he cheated on you with and I'm sorry I was completely aware of your relationship and did it anyway I guess I'm just a natural bitch" She smirks but in a friendly way and I smile a little.

"Look thank you but I really don't want your pity" I tell her. She nods and leaves after she does an awkward wave. I sit back down not planning on leaving. I wanted to be here when he woke. I wanted to be here when his eyes opened.

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Some time whilst sat on the chair I must of fell asleep as I am woken by some one shaking me. I open my eyes and see a doctor looking at me. I straighten up and look at him connecting our eye co face hoping he would tell me what's happening with Ian.

"Nina, right?" he asks and I nod. He nods too "right well we are at this stage unable to tell when Ian will wake up but all we do know is that he will one day, and even that is not certain." He stops and looks down "what I'm saying Nina is you should go and get some food and a proper rest. I know how you feel and I understand but you do need to leave here at some point"

I nod before saying in a definite and final voice as of I'm not changing my mind kind of way "I'm not going anywhere until I have spoken to Ian and I know he is okay and feels no pain"

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Short update but it's something. I think I will bring this book to an end soon maybe. Not to sure I didn't want this one to be that long so yah.

Thank you for the support on it though and love you all.
Anna