Rising sun.

Just took him away.

A/N: So I've finally gotten around o doing this for you. Just what I need, another story to write. Anywho, here it is.

Cas’ P.O.V

“Dean” I whispered into his ear, my arms wrapped around his waist.

“Cas, go back to sleep.” he grumbled, pulling me closer against him. “Dean” I repeated, more persistantly, pushing at his shoulder.

“Don’t go, please, don’t go” Dean whispered against my bare neck. I sighed, “Don’t do that” I said softly, climbing on top of him. “Don’t make it harder,” I finished, pressing my lips to his neck, trailing them up to his jaw bone.

 “I love you” he mumbled, wrapping his arms tighlty around my shoulders, pulling me against him. “I love you more, I’ll write you everyday, I’ll call you and I’ll try and be back for christmas.” I promised, all the while pressing kisses all over his face.

He sighed and just laid there, a soft but disapointed smile etched onto his face, “don’t forget me” he whispered, and he was already shaking. I pulled back, faking to be shoked. “Dean Winchester, I could never forget you, you are the single most important person to me in my whole life.” I vowed, kissing his lips finaly, before untangling myself from the mess that was our limbs.

I looked back at him once, to see that he had curled in on himself. I was rebreaking him, all those years ago, I had taken happiness that I was the one to fix him, to help him get better, and here I was breaking him, hurting him and it was tearing me apart.

“I’m sorry” I whispered before pulling my clothes on.

Dean’s P.O.V

We finaly made it to the airport.

I couldn’t find it in me to let him go, I couldn’t let him pull away from me, because he wasn’t going to come back.

Who is he kidding, I’m not enough to come back for.

I always knew I wasn’t worthy of his love, of this perfectly content happy life that had taken place, after the hell it was.

Castiel had saved me and now he was leaving, and the memory of the hole was pulsing at my chest. I clutched him tighter, nuzzeling my face closer into his chest. “Dean” he whispered, when the P.A system had announced Cas’ plane.

I shook my head. “Please, you are the only good thing in my life, after......after Sammy” I choked on my words, the very thought sent the memory crashing back to me, and I nearky lost my balance.

I clutched him tighter again. “I know Dean, I know.” He whispered, wrapping his arms back around my waist. The sun was just rising, and for some reason I was blaming the very sun itself, for taking my reason for living away from me. “I wouldn’t leave if I didn’t have to” He said again.

“I know you’re family needs you” I affirmed.

“Come with me, I don’t know how long I’ll be over there, and all I’ll do is worry about you.” he pleaded with me, his blue eyes wide with hope. I shook my head, “Sam is here” I mumbled, looking down at the floor, “Besides Bobby still needs looking after, and then there’s the garage.”.

Last call sounded over the P.A. and Cas pulled away gently. “I love you,” he said again, pressing his lips to mine hurriedly. I couldn’t stop the ragged breathe, that had pulled out of my throat. “I’ll miss you,” I murmured, holding onto his hand.

He picked up his bags, giving me another withering sad look, as his hand slipped from mine.

~

 

All I could do was shake, there was so much blood.

“Sammy” I whispered, my voice cracking, “Dean, I’m sorry” He whispered, I can’t believe it my thirteen year old brother, was dying in my arms, and it was all my fault, I should never have left him alone.

“Please, you’re all I have left.” I cried, he placed a bloody hand on my cheek. “Dean, stop it, you have to stop it.” he pleaded. “Stop what Sammy?” I asked, I would do anything, that would help him.

“The pain, there’s so much pain. This isn’t-“ He coughed, blood trickling dwn form his chin, “Your” he coughed again, his eyes flicking, “Sammy, please, no” I pleaded, pulling him up closer into my arms. “It isn’t your” “Come on, you’ll live, and we’ll get the impala, remember her?” I smiled, “Fault” he finaly finished, a smile spreading across his face as his eyes rolled into the back his head, his hand falling limp against the floor.

His hand hitting the floor with an echoing thump, that resounded throughout my head. “SAMMY” I screamed, shaking his shoudlers softly at first, but as he didn’t respond my hands shook him rougher, and my shuddered cries became screams, until finaly they became sobs.

“Please, oh god.” I sobbed, and jumped when two hands pulled me back.

 

~2 weeks later~

 

I turned to press my face into Cas’ warmth, only to remember he was gone.

The loud thud of Sam’s hand hitting the floor still sounding through my skull, and I felt lonely and cold. Why didn’t I go with him.

Figuring I wasn’t going to get any sleep, I pulled myself out of the warm bed, and into the lounge room.

Pulling out a CD with the only song that I could think of at the moment, the only song appropriate at the moment.

I leant against Cas’ comforter as the lyrics filled my skull;

I said the rising sun just stole my girl away

 I turned my head, my face pressing into a softness, that was unfamilar to the comforter. I stiffened as I realized that he had left his trench coat behind.

The Rising Sun just stole my girl away

It all came back, the familiar patter of Cas’ footsteps, that would usually getting home around now.

The Rising Sun just stole my girl

His face, in the plane window, smiling back at me, flashed through my head.

I’m gonna catch a plane and steal her back again

The empty promises.

The Rising Sun just stole my girl away.

The vows.

Now we’re apart

The emptiness.

Thud

I have nothing now.

I think about her everyday

Bobby Died two days ago, from heart failure.

Well the scuffle of little feet

I miss hearing Cas’ breathe beside my ear as we slept.

All round the bed

The feeling of his arms around my waist.

I’m gettin’ no card, Gettin’ no mail

He hasn’t written, and the pain comes back.

Tokyo Rose is on the radio

The memories still taunt me.

If she don’t come home

 I still have the garage to take care of.

I know that’s where I’m gonna go.

I caught sight of one of Sammy’s book in the office and just broke down, I’m so weak now, if Cas saw me now he’d be ashamed.

Hell, I need him back.