self control ; quackity x reader

part 4

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ever since i was about 13, i've been writing a diary. several, in fact. i've got a box completely filled up with diaries hidden in my wardrobe. my whole life is basically written in there. it's a wonder how no one has even found them but that's fine because god forbid if someone got their hands on them. everything that comes to mind which i feel needs to be let out is written in a diary. when i remember my dreams, i write it down. when i'm mad, i write it down. when i'm sad, i write it down. i write down my dreams, my hopes, my ambitions, my passions, my experiences. there are probably about 20 pages each dedicated solely to aksel and alex. i've even written down my ideal partner, my ideal home, my ideal life - all of that. i've even also written all my feelings about alex when i still had feelings for him at the time. no one has ever read any part of my diary before and if someone did, i'd probably just want to die on the spot. i still don't even think aksel or alex know about them since i only write when i'm at home.

it was about 7:23pm when i was sitting down at my bedroom desk. all the lights were off except for my desk lamp which gave off a warm glow. a week had passed since i first met levi and honestly, he's been amazing. he understands me. he listens to me. just thinking about him makes me uncontrollably smile and giggle like a 5 year old getting ice cream. so, i picked up my pen and began to write.

dear diary,
it's been a while since i've last written. last week, a new kid came to our school. his name is levi.

my lips quirked upwards.

everything about him just seems so perfect. he's like... the person i've been waiting for my entire life. one of the pieces to my puzzle. the person who can make everything okay. there have been a few times where he seems a little odd, i don't know what it is but it's whatever. he's a dork.

i giggled into the palm of my hand.

when i see him, it's just... well, everything is better with him there. he's made me forget about alex. in fact, every time i even try to mention my issues with alex, he somehow finds a way to change the topic and make me forget that i tried talking about him in the first place. that's a good thing... right? because now, i don't need to worry about what's going on with alex. i don't need to.

i sat up and shook my head, my staring eyes blinking at the page. what am i doing?, i thought to myself, rubbing my eyes. am i already catching feelings?

bzzz bzzz bzzz

a jolt of fright ran through my body as i jumped at the sudden sound of my phone ringing.

the eggiest man is calling

i picked up my phone and quickly answered.
"aksel? hey, what's up?"

"y/n! wanna have a home movie night tomorrow?" he eagerly asked.

"oh! yeah, okay. where and what time?"

"yeahhhhh, so just a little favour... do you think we could have it at your place? your parents work night shifts, right? so i don't wanna disturb anyone with our bullshit," he laughed

"wait, you're inviting me to invite you to my own house?" i asked, lifting an eyebrow.

"...yes." i could hear the smile in his voice.

i sighed dramatically. "alright... if you say so, egg head. so, 7 at mine?"

"yep, works good. also you don't mind if alex comes too?" he hesitated. "i want this to be a good night for us. all of us."

"oh um... i guess. does he even want to come?"

"yeah dude, he's actually the one who suggested we have a movie night."

"huh... well okay then," i said, confused. "-but only if i can invite levi too!" i could already feel the butterflies in my stomach.

"of course you can invite him, y/n. it's your house," he chuckled. "alright, i gotta go now but i'll see you tomorrow, grandma."

"wow okay, baldie," i grinned. "see you tomorrow!"

i quickly sent a text inviting levi to the movie night and set my phone down before closing my diary and setting it back into the box in my wardrobe.

my phone's notification sound went off and i quickly rushed over to it

one new message from leave-eye

leave-eye
of course i'll come :)

you
awesome x

i blushed, staring at his message as i cuddled myself into the blankets of my bed. i must have stared at his simple reply for what seemed like hours because before i knew it, i had drifted off to sleep and the darkness in front of my eyes turned into light. i dreamed of him that night. his smile. his laugh. his touch.
levi.

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