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roughly a month had passed since we had the movie night and still, no sign of my diary. let me just tell you this: worst fucking month of my life. i felt anxious everyday and every once in a while, i would have mild panic attacks. i know this may all seem really dramatic and over the top and you're right. it's a fucking diary for god's sake. the kind an 8 year old would write in to gush about her crush who she thinks will be her prince charming one day.
but no, this diary was my safety net. don't get me wrong, aksel is my best friend and alex.. well... was. however, sometimes i feel like i need to let stuff out that i wouldn't even be able to tell aksel. that's what my diary is for.
imagine having all your deepest darkest secrets, all your thoughts; good and bad, your greatest desires and more wrapped up into one book. now, imagine someone has their hands on that book without you knowing where it is and whenever they want to, they have the power to flick through every single page and read it all without your consent.
you see?
that diary is the gateway to seeing into my fucking MIND.
on the other hand, levi has been great. every time i'm with him, it seems like he's more and more perfect. i had barely had the chance to hang out with aksel since i've been trying to avoid alex altogether and they're still best friends after all so i've been spending most of my time with levi. there's no way i was going to try and ruin their friendship as well. every time i would confront alex about my diary, he would simply tell me to talk to levi - which i have done. levi doesn't know what the hell alex wants him to say. so, basically all hope for getting my diary is lost. i don't know where the fuck it is because alex won't tell me anything. i don't know if i can even be in the same room as him for very long just knowing that he probably knows everything about me from the inside out.
tomorrow... oh god, i'm dreading tomorrow. tomorrow we leave for vidcon and as happy as i am with going to support aksel, i hadn't properly been with alex for all this time and i have no idea what it will be like once we all meet up.
one new message from the eggiest man
the eggiest man
man, feels like i haven't seen you in forever
you
yeah, i miss u dude :(
the eggiest man
that's gross, i was jk
you
fuck off
the eggiest man
LOL JK JK IM SORRY MISS YOU TOO
see you tomorrow though, i'll pick you and levi up at 7am
alex will be here too so don't kill each other lol
you
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okay sorry sorry sorry no vidcon yet but DEFINITELY in the next part hahah idk what i'm doing but sorry this took a long time to come out :(
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self control ; quackity x reader
Fanfictiony/n had already given up on her love for alex and before she knew it, a relationship between her and the new boy at school, levi, began to blossom. alex has never been able to show his feelings for y/n but he catches on to levi's dirty little doings...
