Phone Switch | Exo Chen

Chapter 20

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I came back to my senses. I can't believe I remembered everything, every single bit of it that I hated the most.

I looked at my phone to see the text he text me earlier. Now I have doubts to reply. What should I do. Should I just leave it or reply to him.

Those words of the doctor saying not to force his memories back. Now what to do.

I think the word to describe my feelings right now is fear. I am scared to lose you Chen.

The fear sits on me like a pillow over my mouth and nose. Enough air gets by it, allowing my body to keep functioning, but it's crippling all the same.

I have imagined holding you so many times, but now more often that not I find the future I seek is an empty shell. Things have changed so much, so fast, I worry that I won't be able to control the ending of our story.

Why should you forget me? I can not tell you what happened that day. It might damage you Chen.

I'm in love with him.

He never leaves my mind, he's always there; mentally if not physically. It's just incomprehensible.

He's my one stable force, my one stability in a world filled with chaos and I so desperately need that in my life. I love him so much for that. I'm in love with him and I can't believe I've only just realised it.

This feeling is so strange; it stretches throughout my whole body. It's overwhelming, yet makes me feel complete. It has no bound nor length nor depth; it's just absolute.

It feels as though I'm in a dangerous fire, yet I'm completely safe at the same time. It feels as though someone's given me peace.

It feels as though my heart is dancing around my chest; and a hole, I was never aware was there, has been filled. I feel so light, like I'm on top of the world yet my heart is constricting and it feels as if there's no oxygen in my lungs.

It's strange - frightening even - how you can go from someone being a complete stranger, to then being completely infatuated by them and wondering how it ever was that you were able to live without them, because you sure as hell couldn't imagine being without them now.

I know we're only young, and most people would consider me to be foolish and naïve, but it's true when I say that I love him more than I could ever love myself. He's my best friend and, as cheesy as it sounds, he's my anchor. My one stability in this world filled with chaos.

But now when I remembered that moment from the past all this is like pause Ans I started to get confused for a second.

Then in a few minutes I thought of something.

Soo Mi: I need to talk to you tommorow after class

Soo Mi:and bring my phone with you

My hands were sweating and shaking when I type that. I was nervous about what I will about to do tommorow. I might regret later but who knows it did not happen yet.