I feel cold.
I want to cry.
It seems I process the most when I don't sleep
And I just had a revelation.
He had a girlfriend-
HAS a girlfriend-
and despite that,
He still wanted me.
I never really put it together
And I don't know why it makes it any different,
But the fact that he wanted me,
cared enough about me,
Yet still chose her over me...
It hurts...
It hurts all over again,
As if rubbing salt in an aching wound.
I thought that night that it just had been me,
I had wanted it.
I had wanted HIM,
I thought was purely physical to him
But it wasn't.
He CARED
He wanted to be with me-
He doesn't think of me as a friend,
He saw,
No, SEES
Me the same way I do him-
And yet I'm still second best.
I'm too much of a risk
that he's not willing to take...
He's a coward.
A lovely coward,
But a coward nonetheless.
A coward who broke my heart,
Despite our feelings,
Chose a safety net
than take the risk of starting new
in a relationship that meant everything
and still means so much,
but not enough to take that leap of faith...
YOU ARE READING
A Journey
RandomOne day in the unforeseen future, I'll get past this But not in the way you think. I'll learn from my mistakes and become a better person thanks to them. I'll live in a future made possible By those mistakes You can't reach your full potential...
