just another statistic

lil boys or lil girls?

may 22: holland, 20 weeks pregnant

the weeks went by faster than i could've ever expected. while every individual day felt extremely long, due to the constant judging and stress, the weeks flew by. i am now 20 weeks pregnant. i am so very excited to find out the gender of my identical twins, i still think they are girls and i think cameron does too, but we will be happy either way, we just want healthy babies! school has gotten a little easier everyday, my pregnancy is starting to become old news and my classmates are looking for the next "scandal", and most of my teachers are supportive. the babies are now the size of mangoes or bananas and i can feel some movement from them. my morning sickness has, thank goodness, subsided and, besides feeling out of breath and having to pee every 30 minutes, i'm feeling pretty great!

"holland, can you tell me if this statement is an example of ethos, pathos, or logos?" i hear my english teacher ask me.

"this is an example of both ethos and pathos, the author is establishing his credibility on the subject while also invoking feelings of sympathy from his audience on this subject." i answer.

"very good." my teacher says. right now in class we are reviewing for our exam next week. i can't believe it's already may! just after she confirms my answer, the bell rings, signalling it's the weekend. "have a great weekend, y'all! make sure to study, your exam is on tuesday!" she says as the students run out of class.

"holland! i'm so pumped!" juliana says to me as cameron and i walk to his car. juliana's going with us to our anatomy ultrasound appointment and we're finding out the babies genders today! the doctor is going to give her the gender in an envelope and she's going to buy either pink or blue balloons to put into a box for us to open at our little party.

"me too!" i squeal as we all get into cam's jeep, "okay, juls, do you think they are going to be girls or boys?".

"boys! there are so many boys on cameron's side of the family!" juliana says with a smile as we drive away from the school. we talk about school and the babies until we arrive to my obgyn.

"you ready?" cameron looks at me.

i smile, "yes! so ready!". cam, juliana, and i walk into the waiting room and i sign in.

"holland wright?" nurse claire calls my name and we all walk towards her, "big crew today, who's this?" the nurse points at juliana.

"i'm juliana, holland's bestie." juls smiles as claire directs me to the scale.

"well it's nice to meet you, juliana!" claire smiles and reads my weight, "holland, you are 134, five pounds heavier than your last appointment, which is great.". i nod and she leads me to the examination room.

"dr. green will be in shortly." claire tells me as i sit down.

i nervously drum my fingers along the table. "are you nervous?" cameron asks me.

"yeah, i just want the babies to be healthy." i say, because today is the anatomy scan, they are going to check to see if our babies are growing and if they have any defects or abnormalities.

cameron nods, agreeing with me, and dr. green walks in. "hey everybody! are you ready to find out if your little ones are boys or girls?" my kind doctor asks me.

"yes! but can you just write the gender in an envelope and hand it to juliana?" i gesture to my friend, "we are having a little gender reveal thing at my house.".

"of course! now let's get this show on the road!" dr. green exclaims as she squeezes the cold gel on my growing stomach. she puts the camera thingy on me and the screen shows my two little babies.