Jikook: Marriage of Convenience

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TRIGGER WARNING! There are some Self harm scenes. Sorry!

The seven friends woke up to hang overs and excitement since they needed to quickly plan for a wedding. Namjoon In his infinite wisdom asked a relevant question, "Hey Jimin, did your mom and dad say it was ok to marry Jungkook?" The other six looked at him, "dude, literally too early in the morning!" Yoongi smacked the taller boy. Jimin smiles, "uh, I'm sure they'll be ok with it." They all started to wake up and get ready to go home and dal with their individual hangovers.

Jimin started to walk home with Jungkook trailing behind. "Ugh, Jimin, I feel like shit. Slow down." "I'm literally not walking fast, Kookie. You are just slow today!" Jimin answered teasingly. They eventually make it to Jimin's house, go inside and fall onto the couch. "Mommy! I feel crappy, Jungkook made me drink and I got drunk and now I feel yucky!" Jimin pouted to his mother. She looked at them and laughed, "yeah right baby! Here let me get you boys some aspirin and water and I'll get you something to eat. Ok?!" She walked away laughing and shaking her head.

"Why were you boys drinking anyway?" "Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you, Kookie asked me to marry him." His mother dropped the glass of water she was holding, spilling the contents on the floor. "Excuse me?!" She wasn't mad, she was worried, she knows her son's feelings towards the dark haired boy. She didn't want to seem disapproving or dash her son's hopes that his crush would love him back the same way, so she stayed silent, but smiled at the couple on the couch. "So mrs. park are you ok with me asking Jimin to marry me?" She tilted her head, "of course I am sweetie. Let's start planning a wedding, after you eat!" She would stay positive for Jimin.
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Jimin and Jungkook were getting caught up in the wedding planning, buying suits, checking out cakes, finding a venue, filling out registries and finding a minister who would marry them since they were two males. Jimin was all in, he was beyond ecstatic, he knew this was a fake wedding but he wasn't going to give into his insecurities, his plan was to be the best husband and maybe, just maybe Jungkook would return his love. The wedding was in two weeks since it had to be before Jungkook's birthday, so they decided on August 31st, the day before his birthday. Neither could forget about an anniversary with that date.

As their wedding day neared Jimin had to choose his best man, Tae and Jin each thought they would ask him, however, Jimin settled on his little brother Jihyun. He didn't want to single out his friends and make the other feel left out. They understood, knowing Jimin's kind heart. Jungkook asked Namjoon to be his best man. Yoongi was asked to play the piano, Jin was asked to sing as Jimin walked down the aisle and Tae was the planner. He made sure everyone was where they were supposed to be on time.

Tae Asked Jimin if he wanted to have a bachelor party. "No I'm good!" He felt a smack on his back, "oh come on fiancé, we need to let loose the day before we get married." Jungkook winked at Jimin, he whispered, "even though this is fake, we need to make it look believable or I won't get my inheritance." Reality came crashing back down on Jimin. He knew the truth but chose to ignore it, until it slapped him back in the face. But to keep up pretense, he smiled at the man he loved and agreed. He later pulled Tae aside, "no strippers please, Tae." "I'll see what I can do." Tae understood the implication of his request.
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The day of their wedding rehearsal, dinner and bachelor party had arrived, both Jungkook and Jimin were dressed nicely and walked through their roles of their soon to be wedding. Jimin was thrilled and Jungkook played his role as a doting fiancé to a tee. Jungkook was under the impression that Jimin was still acting, "so Jimin what are we going to do at our bachelor party tonight? Did Tae get any strippers?" "Uh, I don't think he could get any on such short notice, could you Tae?" Hoping the later would understand the question. Tae nodded in agreement. "Oh ok." Jungkook answered a little quietly.

After the dinner the boys took Jimin and Jungkook to their studio where they had set up drinks, music and some of their friends and family. Jimin hopes that since he had to pretend to be getting married, Jungkook would be on his best behavior, he hopes were dashed after their families left. Jungkook got more shots and drinks and started hitting on the girls that were left there. Tae and Jin had Jimin distracted for a while but when Jungkook started to dance seductively with two of the girls Jimin lost it.

Yes, he knew it was fake but still, couldn't Jungkook at least ACT like he loved him?! Jimin broke down in tears as he watched his fiancé, the man he loved be pulled into one of the rooms off their studio with one of the girls. Jimin slumped in his chair with Jin putting his arm around him. Jimin perked up when he saw the door open quickly, he saw his love come out, "Yoongi, where are your condoms? I gotta be careful ya know?!" Yoongi just laughed and handed him a few. "Thanks man." Jungkook found Jimin across the room, he waved, Jimin gave him a fake smile and he disappeared back into the room. Jimin felt weak, "Hyung, I don't feel good." Jin helped Jimin to the bathroom where he threw up the contents of their dinner and all the alcohol he just drank.

With tears in his eyes, he told his friends he was leaving. The only ones who understood what was really going one tried to help their small friend, Jimin resisted, he just wanted to be alone. "Ok, just call if you need us," Tae and Jin stated.
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It had started to rain, Jimin didn't feel it. He made his way home, everyone was sleeping, he went to his room, took off his wet clothes and stood in front of the full length mirror. "No wonder he'll never love me. I'm just not...not...I'm just not." He concluded. While looking at the counter he saw a small box. In his drunk and depressed state, he opened it and took one out. He slide the sharp edge against his fingertips. He didn't even feel the cut, until he saw the blood come out. It wasn't deep though.

He got into the shower, the blade was still in his hand, he didn't realize until he looked down. He wondered, one cut, pain, blood. He watched it swirl down the drain. Another cut, this time a little deeper, more pain, more blood, but this one made him forget just for a moment the pain in his heart. The tears continued to fall; another cut, more pain, more blood, more tears. He slid down the shower wall. This continued until the water ran cold, bringing Jimin out of his drunk depressed state, he got up, carefully wrapped the blade in tissue paper and hid it in the cabinet. He dried off, wrapped his bloodied arm and went to bed, without bothering with clothes. The next day would be his fake wedding to the man he loved. Jimin did not sleep soundly.
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Jungkook wobbled out of the room he went into with the girl he had been dancing with and made her leave the studio. He somehow felt guilty and didn't understand why. And it didn't even feel good. The girl didn't do anything right, she didn't even look good. She didn't have pretty crescent eyes, or a button nose or pouty full lips. She wasn't his type, he didn't enjoy it. He started looking for his best friend who decided to marry him. He found Jin and Tae curled up together on the mats. "Hey," he slurred his words, "where's, where's Jiminie?" He asked the duo. Neither answered him, just shrugged their shoulders, grunting at him. They knew where he was but why should their friend suffer more than he has already tonight? Jungkook was too drunk to keep moving and laid down next to them on the mat and passed out. The name on his lips when he fell asleep, "Jimin."

Sorry for the self harm scene, I had to show what kind of mind set Jimin is in. He's desperately in love with Jungkook but sadly he suffers alone. He takes his depression to new levels. This will have a huge effect on the plot later on. Again I'm sorry. If you have any thoughts of harming yourself please talk to someone and seek help!! You are loved💜