Change Me (editing)

Chapter 18

Jessica's POV 💭
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Tyler ignored me for the whole weekend.. No text messages , no phone calls , no NOTHING !

I woke up extra early this Monday morning, anxious to see her but more than anything I was nervous. What if she doesn't want to speak to me? What if she doesn't even show up to school today?

I took a deep sigh. All these thoughts running through my head gave me a headache.

When I got to school I headed straight for Tyler's locker. When I got there I saw a letter taped to her locker. Confused I looked around to see if anyone else's had that letter and maybe about 10 others on this hall did. Out of curiously i opened the letter. The top of the letter read "Navy Reserve". Immediately a tear escaped my eye. The navy?!

I lowered my eyes to the line that read "Congratulations". I held the letter tight in my hands and slid down the lockers. When did she sign up for this?! What was she thinking?! Why didn't she tell me ..

A few minutes later I felt the letter taken out of my hand. I quickly jumped and looked up to saw Tyler opening her locker with her jaw clenched tight. She placed her Pre-Calculus book in her bag and threw it on her back. She paused and opened the letter, closing her eyes and taking a deep breath. She placed the the letter in her back pocket and started to walk away. I quickly picked myself up off the floor and yelled after her .

"Why would you do that?!" I screamed.
She stopped and turned around. "Last time I checked you didn't have a say in my life."

"Tyler when have you even talked about the Navy?! When have you ever thought about putting your life on the line like that?! Why?!" I shouted through tears.

She walked up to me and stood in my face and whispered,"I decided to put my life on the line way before I decided to put my heart on the line." With that she turned and walked to class.

I eventually made my way to class and sat in my usual seat and oddly enough I didn't see Tyler, her friends yes, her, no.

I turned around and looked at Dontae who just gave me a sad expression.

"Where is she?" I asked .

"The beach.. " one if the girls answered playing with her nails.

"She leaves in a week.." Dontae added.

I ran my fingers through my hair and just as my teacher walked in I walked out. I ran to my car and headed to the beach.

When I got there I got out of my car and searched around for Tyler. I looked around the beach houses and around the docks and found her nowhere.

I took off my shoes and started to make my way down further down the beach. I was walking past another dock when I noticed the black "xo" shirt Tyler had on laying on it . I walked towards it and stopped at the top of it to see Tyler sitting on the end in her sports bra and cargo shorts , her blue boxers showing, her head down , her body totally still . I dropped my shoes in the sand and slowly walked towards her but one of the boards creaked causing her to jump up and draw her pocket knife. I took a sigh of relief when she noticed it was me and sat back down.

I sat behind her wrapping my legs around her waist and my arms around her body.

"Go away.." She said in a low voice.

I laid my head on her shoulder. "Shut up you don't mean that...."

She stayed quiet.

I held her tighter as I felt another tear escape.

"Tyler don't leave .." I finally choked out. "I'm sorry ok?"

"After this year is over I'm gone. No going back." She said almost emotionless.

I leaned back and wiped all the tears pouring out of my eyes. "You're gonna get hurt out there!"

"That's better than being here honestly." She turned and looked back and me, coming up on her feet then kneeling down in front of me. She kissed my cheek then stood up and walked off .

She was almost out of my sight when I got up , grabbed my shoes and ran after her . When I finally caught up to her I grabbed her arm and spun her around.

"I know about the girl ! I know about what you went through ! I know you haven't been the same since then and I'm sorry . I didn't know what to say because just like I know what you've been through you know what I've been through .. I was scared . Im not scared anymore !" I yelled holding her hands in mine tightly .

She rolled her eyes and my frustration grew.

"What do I have to do to prove myself then?!" I asked.

She shrugged and released herself from my grip and started to walk away again. Just then a storm cloud appeared and the thunder started to roar.

"So walking away is just you're thing huh?!" I yelled.

"Pretty much!" She shot back.

Then the rain started to pour.

"Stop walking away from me! From this ! From US !"

"This?! Us ?! There is no "us"! You didn't want it !" She said now in my face yelling. I closed my eyes tight.

"I'm walking away because you can't handle everything I can throw at you! You can't handle this ! You can't handle an "us" ! Just face it . Forget it ! You're about to cry right now because I'm in your face . You can't handle it , you can't handle me." She said .

She slowly backed away but I grabbed her arm , pulling her back in and kissing her .

I eventually pulled away and slightly whispered , "I can handle you."

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