Love & War

What about us?

I have been calling Drew since he left my apartment 2 mornings ago and he has yet to call me back. I know he is really going through it with Imani finding out about Carter and I but what did he expect to happen. At this point if she leave he still has us. Imani was selfish and inconsiderate. She has a man that allows her to sit at home and be a wife and mom and she was still unhappy. Be a wife and shut up.

I put Carter down for his nap and decided to text Drew.

Symone: Hey, are you okay?

Drew:...

Symone: Say something, please.

Drew: My divorce was filed.

Symone: I'm sorry to hear that. You still have Carter and I

Drew: .....

Symone: What?

Drew: I don't love you Symone. I didn't want this. I love Imani. I should've never fucked you.

Symone: What about us?

Drew: What about you....I'll put myself on child support. I'm tired of righting wrongs that should've never been committed in the beginning.

Symone: You're so full of shit Drew. Well I'm pregnant...AGAIN

He didn't respond. I'm upset but I figured now is the best time to tell him. This time he doesn't have to keep us a secret. I have made myself available whenever he needed me and for him to tell me he doesn't love me and this was never suppose to have happened is a slap in the face.

I slipped on something sexy and was going to just go to the bar but a text came through.

Drew: I'm coming over.

Symone: I knew you would change your mind. You never have to ask.

Drew: ......

11:45 p.m

Drew arrived at my place and was quiet. He just came in and sat on the couch and looked very empty.

"Hey, you okay" I asked.

"Symone, I'm going to ask you one time and one time only. Get an abortion please". He spoke those words so openly and didn't care about my feelings.

"Drew, are you fucking serious? This is apart of me. I can't believe what you're asking" I cried.

"Symone, I'm fighting for my wife" he pleaded.

"Now you're fighting for her. All the times we were fucking in my bed and now you want to fight for her. After the nights you told me you hate even going home. She is gone Drew and that's all your fault you little bitch" I reached my breaking point.

I saw him get angry and he approached me and grabbed my neck.

"What you called me" he clenched his jaw.

I looked him dead in his eyes with the same hate he claimed he had for his wife and repeated "You're a fucking bitch".

He slapped me so hard I fell and as I was getting up he came and punched me in the face and kicked me in my back and dragged me into my room and slammed me on the bed and I pleaded with him to stop because Carter was asleep and didn't need to hear the commotion.

"Apologize" he demanded.

I looked up with tears in my eyes and apologized. My body was in pain and then as I was getting up I felt the warmth between my legs and saw my hands were red from the blood. Drew beat me and I never thought I would be in this position with him. Drew looked at me with hate.

"I asked you nicely" he said.

At that moment I was certain I was completely done with Drew. I am no ones punching bag.

I got up to go to the ER and as I arrived my heart literally sunk. Imani was here and she looked like she has been crying. She spotted me and dried her tears and asked the nurse how long is it going to be before her daughter is seen.

I dont know why I approached her but I did.

"Imani, look we don't have to like each other but our kids are siblings" before I can finish she cut me off.

" We will never come together for the sake of these kids. My daughter will never surround herself with the type of woman you are. You're a whore and homewrecker. You came in and wanted my life so bad...now you have him...is it everything you imagined." She spoke with hurt.

"Imani, Drew is not the man you think and it wasn't me perusing him. He is why I'm here now" she cut me off again.

"Fucking save it. I have a sick daughter and I don't want to hear how my soon to be ex husband is the reason you're here. You deserve everything coming you're way and I'm going to let you and Karma get well acquainted" she hatefully responded.

"I deserve to get beat on because I'm pregnant and won't get an abortion. I deserve to be kicked and dragged in my place and bruisrd up because he doesn't want you to find out he was still cheating on you. I'm sorry about your daughter but I'm losing a child as we speak because your husband the father of both of our kids decided to take the anger of y'alls divorce out on me." I cried. I needed her to hear me and feel my pain.

"Imani Mitchell" the nurse called out.

She looked at me and responded.

"Is it everything you imagined" and walked off.

She was right. I wanted her life so bad. I wanted to be her and that man never felt for me like he did her.

Lesson learned.