Forever Yours [Series Two of Bittersweet Disasters]

[50] I Need Time To Think, Don't Come Looking For Me

♥︎♡♥︎ DEZERAE PARKER ♡♥︎♡

{11:15 pm} LAYING KJ DOWN IN HIS crib, I tiptoe out of the room and quietly shut their bedroom door. I enter our room and grab my phone off the nightstand. "Where are you going?" Kaiden asks, pausing the TV show and turning his undivided attention to me.

"I just laid the boys down for their mid-morning nap," I answer. "So now I'm going into the sitting room and spending some time with Destiny. Can you keep your ear out for the boys?"

"Mm-hmm." He nods and smiles at me.

Shooting one back, I exit our room and go into the sitting area. I find Destiny sitting in there, holding Annabelle. I plop down beside her and smile. "She's so adorable," I comment. "I can definitely see Trent in her."

Destiny giggles. "Everyone has been saying that to me," she answers. "I love how I carried her for nine months and she came out looking more like Trent." I giggle. "Can you hold her for a second?" Destiny asks. "I have to grab the nipple cream from her bassinet."

"Sure." Destiny carefully passes Annabelle to me and then stands up to go grab the nipple cream. I gently brush my thumb against her cheek. "You're so adorable," I coo to her. As I continue to gently stroke her cheek, tears gather up in my eyes and a couple escape and splash against my hand. Moments later, Destiny returns and sits back down beside me. "Did she fu— Honey, what happened?" she asks, lightly touching my arm.

"It's just—" I exhale a deep breath. "If it makes you feel better I think Annabelle looks like you. I only see a little bit of my brother in her."

"Aw, thanks, honey," she replies, smiling at me. A moment later, she turns serious again. "Now, tell me the real reason why you're crying."

I sigh inaudibly. "I was bleeding last night and I didn't know what was wrong, so Kaycie took me to the ER and they ran a sonogram on me and. . ." I bite my bottom lip and sigh again. "I had a-a mis-miscarriage."

Destiny gasps softly as she covers her mouth. "Aw, sweetie, I'm so sorry," she apologizes quietly.

"It-it hu-hurts," I mutter. "But-but, I-I-I'm sure Ka-Kaiden's fucking hap-happy I mis-miscarried. He did-didn't eve-even want a-another one. [He-he cheat-cheated on me on-on our honey-honeymoon. And he did-didn't even tell me un-until we got back.]"

Meeting my eyes and frowning, Destiny pauses her rubbing the cream on her nipple and I hear someone inhale a sharp breath from over yonder. I glance up and spy Kaiden leaning against the wall with his arms crossed on his chest. "Ka-Kaiden," I whisper, [all] color draining from my face. "How long have you-you been stand-standing there?"

"Long enough," he murmurs. "Why would you even say something like that? You think this doesn't hurt me as much as it's hurts you?!"

"Ka-Kaiden," I whisper.

He rolls his eyes as he pivots around and starts heading back towards our room.

I gasp silently as I glance at Destiny. Without saying anything, I gently pass my niece back to her and then spring up. "Kaiden, wa-wait!" I cry as I bolt into our room.

"Wait for what?" he stresses, spinning to face me and shooting me an angry look. "You think that I'm happy that you miscarried?!" I observe as tears spring to his eyes and start streaming down his face. He goes to say something else, but I cut him off. "Obviously!" I protest. "I distinctly remember you telling me on the plane that you aren't ready for another one. And then finally when you got it out of me you didn't look to happy! So me having that miscarriage was the icing on the cake! Now you don't have to worry about me delivering another screaming, crying baby in nine months!"