"Just Friends" 2

Chapter 9

LILLYS POV

I woke up to Crawford laying his head on my chest, did i really fall asleep? i must have been tired. I slid out of his grasp and skipped the shower and  parting my hair directly down the middle, After i perfectly straightened it, i did makeup, i decided to look a little darker today. I was sharpening my eyeliner when the sharpener broke because i was using the wrong sharpener. The blade fell to my feet. The urge to cut was overwhelming and after all its just one cut, so why not? I picked the blade up and rinsed it in the sink. I looked down on this piece of cheap metal that ruined my life, wondering how different things could be, i took the razor to my skin dragging one clean line down the more right side of my wrist. A thick line of blood appeared and i couldn’t help myself i did one more on the left side. They were bleeding pretty bad so i rapped gauze and an ace bandage over it to stop the bleeding. Then i continued with my makeup, and put the blade in my pocket. I unwrapped my arm to see if it had stopped but the gauze was all red and it wasn’t done. I tried rewrapping it then a knock came from the door, and it scared the shit out of me.

“Hey babe its me, you okay you’ve been in there a while.” 

“yeah I’m fine babe just go get ready and ill meet you down stairs in twenty minutes.” He didnt answer but his footsteps disappeared and i finished wrapping my arm. Once i was done with my makeup i walked to my closet. I had to wear a sweater. I picked out a black crop top with a red and black flannel completed with black high-waisted skinny jeans and red vans. I kept the bandage on and just put the flannel over it. Once i was done with that i added red lipstick and i walked down stairs. Chris and Crawford watched me walk over to them with sympathetic looks. 

“what?” i asked stupidly knowing Crawford told Chris

“nothing” they said in sync 

“you don’t have to go today if you don’t want to” Crawford assured me

“and let you try and kick their ass's, i know you, so no I’m going but will you guys tell the other guys to walk me to class, please?” i begged

“i already did last night Lill's.” Chris told me

“yeah babe, come on lets go.” he said sticking his hand out and pulling me to the front door. I grabbed my black shoulder backpack and phone then we left for school. 

Once we got there everyone was staring at me. Do they know? I just kept my head low and walked to first. Once i sat down Lycia came in and sat next to me she looked pretty darn mad too.

“whats the matter?” i asked in the friendliest way possible

“Don’t talk to me.” she bugged

“what? why?” 

“because we all know you are a backstabbing bitch. When you tried hitting on Rachel's boyfriend? yeah that was a bad move and when you blackmailed her?” 

“i didn't do any of tha-“

“save it for someone who cares Lilly. God your such a freak.” 

Why was she being so mean? She’s normally the nicest person ever. So we didn't talk the whole period. Not once. it was so tense you probably couldn’t see your hand if it was in front of your face. Finally class ended and i was just shocked right now but i knew it would lead to a depressing sate. Crawford walked me to my next class and kissed me goodbye and he’d see me in third. I walk in and Chris smiled at me but i didn't smile back. 

“Lilly whats the matter?”

“everyone thinks i was hitting on him and i blackmailed her. its not fair i didn't do anything to her but say she was bitchy. I don’t understand Chris.” i was nearly in tears. Then Cameron walked in he Didn't look happy.