"Just Friends" 2

Chapter 11

LILLYS POV

Chris just sadi some people came to see me and i was excited! gahh He told me to guess but i was too happy to speak so chris just moved and let Carter, and his girlfriend Maggie, Taylor, and Aaron. They all hugged me and i got introduced to maggie, god i was jelous of her, she as stunning. Perfect and i mean perfect body, lip strusture, clothes, hair, tattoo, and she had carter, she was literally perfect, but carter did always say he liked a "bad girl" and i guess he found one. Taylor sat on the end of my bed tickling my feet causing me to acedentally kick him in the nuts. Good thing we were in the hospital. Aaron sat on the other side of my bed and we talked about what had been going on and the guys said theyd be here for a couple months because of meetings and such, for the next tour in January. Hopefully i can go. For now thugh im stuck here. All the guys except crawford left becaue it was getting late. Crawford snuggles next to me and kisses my cheek, 'i love you' is all he whispered before he fell asleep. I couldnt sleep though so i put my earphones in and selfied us. It was cute. I posted it to instagram and captioned it, 'My babe and me at the hospital." everyone asked if i was okay buti didnt reply. i was pretty tired though. 

*next day*

I woke up and crawford was changing, loser. i giggled because he was in his use to be blue but now purple underwear. He must have noticed i was awake because he giggles and gave me a playful smile. 

"Babe the first week and every friday and saterday you better have me scheduled to stay." he told me sitting on the bed.

"Already done." i did it on my phone lasy night.

He was crisscross like me and had a pillow in is lap, he then reached out for my hands and turned so my wrists were up. "crawford" i whispered to him trying to get him to let go but he didnt. He held them tighter and asked when i get the stitchs out and i told him they disolve after a week. He nodded and wanted to unbandage tham but i told him that wouldnt be a good idea but he insisted, once he unrapped them he read the stitches. They said 'freak' on the left and 'worthless' on the other.

After ten or so minutes of staring at them he rapped them back up then said 'Like your drawing' i noded and it was silent. I was fidling with my hands when he pulled out my backpack, art project and a whole drawing kit that was pretty thick micannical pencils because i cant use sharpeners. 

"Crawford, why did you get me this?" 

"ahhh because your talented and going through your old sketch books, like all of those" he pointed to the box on the chair "its like your diary and i want you to get it out of you. Also i brought your school project."

i thanked him and grabbed the box setting it between us looking for the one with the oldest date. I went through it and i sucked back then and they were all sunshine and rainbow with the suns in the corner. Then there was another one filled with portraits and another with nature, a dozen cartoon books, Then a couple doodlign ones some school ones and i found one fron the begining of the year. There were portraits of me and rachel having fun, broken hearts, stitches, cuts, and some anorexia ones. I hadnt noticed crawford but i think he noticed too that when i started hanging around with rachel i got really depressed and that was right before i tried to kill myslef. I took my new scetch book and i doodled a picture of me an crawford really quick. Then i took my project and started working on it again, probably three ehours passed before i relized i zone dout and crawford was just watching me, yet i finished. 

The picture was of a girl, that looked like me crying in her bra and underwear, she was kinda chubby and she had dotted lines on her body for where she didnt want the fat. This girl was holding a heart that was cracked but the stitches spelt out 'CRAWFORD' and then the girl had scars all over her body and on the wrists read 'freak' and 'worhtless'  Also on this girls fore head read 'loser' then below her in big letter, spelt out with razors and pills, read 'lilly'. This was probably my best drawign ever and i loved it. I couldnt turn it in so i kept it. After all i have to change to online school in the hospital. 

"Hey babe lets get you packed up, we leave for the hospital in an hour." 

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hope you guys like it and sorry its short but someone wanted an update and there it is... ill probably update again tomorrow cuz i have to write it and i don treally have time rn