"Just Friends" 2

Chapter 7

Crawford spoke first. 

Crawford:Lilly, are you mad at me?

Me:

Crawford:Babe dont be like that.

Me: Be like what? Mad that you lied to me? Or worried about what was going on in the hall? Im sorry ill just stop caring then.

Crawford: Lilly how did i lie?

Me: You told me you were fine, but everyone that has talked to me said that you wouldn’t talk to any one. And when you did it was about me. You said you were fine. Now i see what happened in the hall.

Crawford:Okay lilly yes i was super freaking depressed when you were in there. I didn’t want to leave you. I wanted to take you home. Also the videos were leaked i lost everything i worked hard to build because of Rachel and so i was sad because i had no one. Chris was going out with Amy and was never here and my parents were trying to sell me childhood house. i was depressed.

Me: Crawford you should have told me, and believe me i wanted all of that too, and its my fault. Those were leaked because of me. So I’m sorry. You could have talked to someone. Got medication, Like me.

Crawford: But thats beside the point, i didn’t want you to worry about me. I wanted you to focus on getting better but it doesn’t seem like you did. Lilly i told you everything. Now you. Why arnt you eating?

Me: Babe…. I don’t want to talk about it. 

Crawford: Lilly you need to. Because if you don’t I’m telling and you’re getting help. 

Me: You wouldn’t. It only made things worse. People look at me like I’m crazy like a freak and I’m tired of it. Im fat because the hospital practically shoved food down all the anorexic peoples throats. Im sorry. 

Crawford: You are beautiful. You are my freak and i will shove food down your throat. I love you okay?

I smiled and laid my head on his shoulder. I felt like crying but i didm tneed him seeing me cry… again. 

Why did everything have to be so complicated? why couldn’t i live an easy life? Homeschooled? How come he put up with such a broken soul like me? it wasnt fair to him. Things would be much better if i just disapeared. Crap, lilly don tthink like that. Im only makeing things worse. 

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This book is starting to suck butt. SUggestions please? message me please? im desprate because not as many people are reading and i want you guys to like it.