The wheel of life

part 10

I fell asleep but didn’t sleep for long. A different nurse and Mr. and Mrs. Payne (Seths’ parents)came in to see him and woke me up as they entered. I sat up as Mrs. Payne came to give me a hug, “it’s good to see you up and about” she said looking at me smiling. I sat back down without a reply and watched as Mr. Payne stood there staring at his son. I had never seen a grown man especially a big built guy like him so sad, almost about to cry. A slight knock at the door startled me, it was only a doctor. “Nurse, how’s he holding on?” a deep soft voice flowed out of his scruffy looking mouth “he’s holding on, all his checks are in order I’m not quite sure about his heartbeat, it’s a bit slower than it should be and it sometime skips a beat.” The Doctor grabbed the chart from the end of the bed and gave it a long hard look over. “Just keep a close eye on him and he should be fine” he smiled and placed the chart back and walked out of the room followed by the nurse. We all stood in silence. Watching. Waiting, hoping that magically he would awaken but nothing happened.

 I stayed there the whole day. Mr. and Mrs. Payne come in and out several times during the day but I never moved. The chair seemed like the only comfort for me. Sitting next to him just made me feel a lot safer and calm. Constant flashbacks flickered in and out of my mind. It was always the same thing. Sitting on the Ferris wheel watching the fireworks, then just as he gave me the necklace id flash back to reality.

My parents came to check on me a few times, they kept telling me to go back to my room but I couldn’t. I couldn’t leave him. He promised to never let me go so I must do the same even if I have to stay here forever. I’d rather be here next to him then to never see him.

When night fell once again I couldn’t fully sleep. The heart beat monitor was too distracting. The clock just ticked over to 10:34, I sat there motionless thinking of all the ways that the situation could go.

What if Seth never wakes up? What if he wakes up but doesn’t remember me? What if he wakes up but blames me for all of this?

The tears came back once again. I leant over and laid my head on his chest. My tears covered his blanket. “Why… why did I ask to go on the Ferris wheel? We could have just stayed on the grass and none of this would have happened. It’s all my fault” I cried out but slightly muffled into the blanket.I slowly cried myself to sleep.