The Vengeful Butterfly / X1

Broken with and without you

Junho took a bite of the omlette and smiled –Oh my God Eunsang, this is so good! I was so hungry!- Eunsang smiled proudly –I know you were pretty busy today so dinner is the least I could do-he gave him another melancholic look which made Junho uncomfortable.

-Ok, whats wrong with you?- Junho finished the last bite and crossed his arms.

-Um..what do you mean?-Eunsang asked.

-Something is bothering you but I didn't want to ask until you were ready to say it by yourself and since that's not happening...-he shrugged.

-Come with me...-Eunsang got up and took Junho's hand, leading him to the sofa-Maybe we should take a sit-he sat first, pulling Junho next to him, not letting go of his hand.

-Ok, you're making me nervous-Junho smiled weakly, but Eunsang's eyes didn't smile back.

-I don't know how to say this but...-Eunsang held Junho's hand, squeezing it stronger to feel the boy's skin which usually helps him to relax.

-Eunsang-ah what happened?-Junho bit his bottom lip, leaning his head on the side.

-Um...-Eunsang closed his eyes in pain-...You know how much I miss my family and I've never got a chance to spend some time with my father ever since he got out of the hospital...and also my sister...-he started, not even facing Junho.

-I know, that's why I hav-

-No, wait, let me finish- Eunsang interrupted him- I...I'm leaving for USA in 2 days-he blurted out and sqeezed Junho's hand again.

-Wh...What?-Junho couldn't believe what he's heard. He already searched for the tickets and planned to book them in a couple of days and now, he tried to focus on Eunsang's words but his mind wasn't cooperating.-For how long? Why didn't you tell me earlier? When did you decide this? What about your classes?-he kept asking questions without catching a breath. He pulled his hand out of Eunsang and ruffled his hair in disbelif and anger.

-I'm so sorry...I'm so sorry, baby..-Eunsang got closer to Junho and carassed his back gently- My mother booked me ticket a few days after my dad's arrival and I...I couldn't delay it because I ha-

-YOU KNEW ABOUT THIS FOR MONTHS???-Junho snapped and got up, nervously walking back and forth through the room.

-I'm sorry...I should've told you but I didn't want you to be sad and just wait for the moment I'd leave-Eunsang tried to explain but he knew there was nothing that could calm Junho down, it was already late.

-How long will you stay there? Are you coming back before our final year starts?-Junho asked, still mad at his boyfriend tho deeply inside he understood why the boy wanted to visit his family and spend some time with them. But he didn't want to forgive him quickly becase Eunsang kept this secret for months.

-Junho...I'll be finishing my college there...-

Junho froze and lifted his eyes towards Eunsang. Finishing college? He's leaving for 1 year?

-No..Don't...-he sighed deeply, casting his gaze onto the ground and his eyes darkened. He glanced back up at Eunsang.-Don't leave me...-his voice sounded more pained than anything.

In that moment, Eunsang got up and rushed to him, throwing his hands around Junho's neck, hugging him tightly. Junho felt the shivering from the other boy and wanted to hug him back but his hands and body couldn't move. Everything hurt. –I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I love you...-he heard the silent words near his ear. Don't leave me,Eunsang-ah. He slowly managed to lift his arms and put them gently around Eunsang's waist. He felt Eunsang's heavy breathing and something wet on his neck. He stepped back a little, just enough to look at Eunsang's eyes.