Twin Mates

Chapter 9 Fire

(Andrea's POV)

Crixus and I had left the bedroom, to make sure that Andrew didn't wake up. We didn't want to disturb him, so we went downstairs to the living room

The whole house was silent. I felt so small and insignificant 

We sat in silence, staring into each other's eyes

Crixus waited patiently for me to start

"I guess I should start from the beginning" I said, clearing my throat 

He still didn't say anything, he just waited quietly

"When my mom had Andrew and I, my father was perfect. The perfect alpha, perfect mate, perfect friend, perfect son, perfect father, perfect man in general. He was happy and loving. Loving in a way that any and every father should be" I smiled at the beautiful memory

I closed my eyes, remembering his comforting smile

"My mother was killed when Andrew and I were 4. She he was mauled  by rouges, right in front of us. She died protecting us. The rouges wanted Andrew and I, but she attacked first and managed to rip two of the wolves jaws, right open. Sadly..that wasn't enough to stop the others After that, my father turned on my brother and I. Mostly me, because I was identical to my mother. Of course Andrew look like her, but I had her figure" I said, looking down at my hands 

I started clamping my eyes shut

"At first, it was just screaming, then it turned to hitting, then punching, then, one night...he came into my room. He told me that I deserved it. That it was my fault, that I wanted it. He told me that I was nothing compared to my mom" I growled, clutching my hands tightly

My hands were shaking, and I could feel my nails digging into the palm of my hands

I took a deep breath

"At first,it was only every now and then, then it started to become more frequent. One day, he wasn't the only one that got into my room. He had four other friends. When I started to say no, when I started screaming for help, they dragged in Andrew. He was drugged. They told me that if I didn't do it, they would do the same to him" I scoffed, shaking my head, trying to remove the memory from my mind

" My mother gave her life for us, so that we wouldn't be hurt. I wasn't going to let her sacrifice be in vain. Just because they had to hurt me, didn't mean that they had to hurt him too. So I let them, I let them do anything and everything they wanted" I whispered, letting a single tear for fall from my left eye

My breathing was slow, my chest hurt, and all I  wanted was just to disappear into nothingness

"I wanted to say no, I wa- I wanted to stop them, we were just kids. I couldn't...I couldn't let them hurt him" I cried

Crixus knelled down in front of me.

He took my hand and his and squeezed it tightly

"Andrea, I'm so sor-" he started

"No, don't say that. Don't apologize, I'm not done yet." I raised my voice, hating the word 'sorry' because when people used it...they weren't actually sorry. It was just a word they used and abused, just to make themselves feel better

 "My father- he never use protection. For most part I was lucky." I said

"Most part?" He asked me

"My dad, he was very violent. What he wanted, he got. Even if it meant getting me pregnant. In a sick way, I think he substituted me from my mom. He thought I was her. But I wasn't" my voice had been reduced to a whisper again