How you changed my mind

Drawmij's Chapter Two

  My mother stood staring at me for a second, while she did I got to look her up and down. She was a very beautiful woman that's why all the men in the village wanted to be with her. She was wearing her red dress that she wore when she was going to go into town to "show herself off since my dead beat father won't do it himself" is what she always called it. I start to think about how my mother says I have my fathers genes because I'm the ugliest thing ever. Before I can really start thinking about it my mother suddenly lunches at me without a word. She slaps me across the face and slams me into the table with her body. I hiss under my breath from the pain but let her see no sign that it's bothering me. When she sees that I wince she calls me a pussy and beats me harder. I must stay strong I think. She'll go away soon. She took her hand and forced my face to look at her. Her piercing eyes looked into mine as she dug her nail into my check. She scrunched her nose in disgust and pushed me to the floor.
"Your such a disappointment. How could something so beautiful as myself give birth to you? Worst of all YOU ARE FUCKED UP IN THE HEAD. God I can't stand the sight of you," she said as she took a swig of her alcohol.
"It's not screwed up to like guys, lots of people are attracted to the same sex.. and it's not like your truly beautiful either," I mutter to myself.
"Shut your mouth. You know nothing of beauty," she said sternly as she rolled her eyes at me.
"I SURE OF HELL KNOW IT'S NOT YOU!" I scream at her.
"Don't raise your fucking voice at me boy!" she said as she slammed the against my head.
   I collided into the wall as she turned and walked into the living room. I felt blood running down my face but I just laid against the wall. Why did I suddenly stand up to her?? I knew that would happen why did I fight so hard for something I'm okay with not being? God I'm so Confused. I thought as I shook my head. I was about to stand up when my mom walked through the kitchen and out the door. Before she left fully she told me she would make me like woman if it was the last thing she did. As soon as the door shut my older sister came running in.
"Are you ok? I'm so sorry I left you. Here come here let me fix you up," she said in a panic.
"I'm fine don't worry it was either me or you I just toke one for the team," I said with a little chuckle trying to lighten the mood.
"Then I'd rather it be me. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you for being gay. You know that I support you don't you??" She asks me.
"Of course I do, thank you. Your always here for me. One day I'll get you out of here I promise," I respond.
"I'll keep you to that promise. Now get going your going to miss your "Friend"," she says with a smile.
"Oh crap thanks bye sis!" I say with a wave.
"Bye be safe! Have fun!!" She says as I leave.
  I sprint down the path to the hill. I run down the stone steps towards the lake behind the house. Across from the lake is another village. I found it when I was going to run away one time. I was going to come back for my siblings so I took a boat to make the trip shorter. Then I found this really cool hiding place, that's where I meet him. I really miss him, WHAT?!? What the hell am I thinking?? He's a boy!!I reach the boat and start to row across fastly. When I finally make it to the other side I'm panting heavily. Why am I rushing so much?? Do I like Max? NO! What the heck me? I shook my head as I sat on a rock. I looked in the water to see myself. I had a bandage on my eyebrow and a large scratch on both checks. I looked exhausted. Maybe mother is right, maybe I really am the ugliest thing alive. I hear footsteps come rushing up behind me.
"Mij!" I hear an angelic voice say.