Stigma | KTH ✔

36 | Winter Nightmare

I'm sorry for this (':

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The night that followed easily topped my list of worst sleepless nights ever.

I couldn't stop my brain from replaying our fight over and over and over again, wondering what would've happened if Jungkook and I hadn't left them like that, or if I had just agreed to not see Minhyuk, Wonho or their other friends ever again.

But the bigger part of me genuinely believes that Taehyung is the one overreacting and being unhealthily overprotective. If he only trusted me he wouldn't have any problem with me talking to Minhyuk, especially if we're literally sitting next to each other in the same damn dining table while everyone are eating together.

Gosh, he makes me so damn frustrated sometimes.

"Hey," Areum's soft voice speaks, breaking through my thinking barrier. I never noticed her getting out of bed, even less getting dressed.

I let out some kind of pained groan, slowly sitting up on the bed and turn to look at her.

"Mh?" I mumble, barely able to keep my eyes open.

"Damn, you look like you didn't get any sleep at all," she sighs, voice laced with concern.

"I didn't," I reply, rubbing my eyes with the back of my hand.

"Do you want me to get you some breakfast?"

Hunger was the last thing on my mind since my stomach still felt like it was tangled up in several double knots. Only thinking about food made me gag. I just shake my head, receiving a sad frown in return from my friend.

"Do you want me to stay with you?" she asks gently.

"I'll only feel worse if I keep you here. It's our last day after all, and it'd be sad to not make the best out of it," I assure her without hesitation.

"But I don't want to leave you alone like this! I'd be more sad knowing that you're here by yourself while me and the others are out."

I manage to crack the smallest smile at that. "Areum, it's okay. I actually want to be alone for a while, I need to clear my thoughts. It's fine, I promise."

"You sure?" she presses, and I start waving my hand in the air.

"One-hundred and fifty percent sure! Go now," I dismiss her. She sighs and eventually gets up to close the curtains.

"Try to get some rest. And text me when you've eaten because I don't want my best friend to starve, got it?"

"Yes mom," I mumble, pulling the cover over my head.

I miraculously managed to fall asleep after twisting and turning for I don't know how many hours. When I peeled my eyes open again, I managed to gather strength to actually get up from the bed and drag my lead-like body to the shower. In there I end up sitting on the tiled floor, keeping my eyes closed and just enjoying the hot water from the shower running over my skin.

Once back in the room, I sit on the edge of the bed staring at my phone that I haven't touched since I called Jin yesterday. I grow anxious to check if he has texted me, deeply hoping that he has but I have a feeling that I will be disappointed.

My heart sinks in dejection when I unlock it and see no messages from Taehyung. I bite my lip and inhale deeply through my nose, trying hard not to freak out.