DEEP WOUNDS

6

-JENNIE-

I open my eyes as I stretched my body from sleep . My eyes still heavy as I remember that I cried hard last night from that stupid thunder . I am still hearing the rain outside but thunders lessen and not as loud like last night . I scan my eyes around as I feel my body aches a little from my position . I look at the thing I am feeling a little heavy on top of my chest thinking it was Kuma . My eyes got wider when I saw a long silky white skin arms in front of my chest . As I tilt my head above , I saw Lisa in her sitting position like last night sleeping in peace . I feel guilty knowing that her position is not comfortable for sleeping . I glanced at the clock on top of the television . 5:35 am . She's been in that position for almost 5 hours maybe .

I pull myself up and sit beside her .

"Lili" I whisper to her ear .

"Lili wake up" her eyes moving as she slowly open her eyes . She wipes her both eyes like a kid and glance to my side . She quickly sit properly and hold my both shoulder and worry evident in her eyes .

"Are you ok? Did you sleep? Are you still scrared? What happened Nini? Is everything al--" before she continue what she is about to say, my adrenaline rush in my lips met hers . I saw how her eyes widen in shocked as I close my eyes and cupped her cheeks with my both hands hoping she will kiss me back . And she did . She wrap her hands around my waist as I wrap my hands around her neck . She tightly pull her embrace to closed our gap and I pull closer her neck to deepen the kiss .

For the first time in 4 months since we met, I saw felt another emotion in her .

Longingness .

The kiss goes softly and turns into passionate kiss as I find myself sitting on her lap and slowly grinding above her . Her hands slid inside my shirt roaming around my body and tracing every curve I have . We pull away form the kiss panting heavily as lack of oxygen occurs . Leaning our forehead together , I saw her eyes sparkles as I put my hands caressing her cheeks . I pull away my head and stare to her deep brown mysterious eyes .

"Good morning" she calmly stated causing me shyly smile .
I wrap my hand around her neck again still sitting on her lap, facing her and I bury my side face on the crook of her neck . She pull out her hands inside my shirt and embrace me tighter .

"Thank you for staying last nigh Lili" my one hand around her neck and my other hand tracing circles on her chest .

She kiss my forehead in a spam of 3 seconds .

"I got worried" her shirt replies.

"I know. Thank you" I peck her lips.

"It's still raining" she said looking at the balcony .

"It's raining hard but I didn't hear thunders" I assure her and she nods .

"Go get Leo and be back again fast Lili. I'll cook breakfast" I hold her head and tilt it to face me . She stares at me and I saw another change with her stares. She smile shortly . As I cupped again her face . I gave her a long peck kiss on her lips .

"I love you" I said out of the blue . It didn't matter now if she will accept my feelings or not . What's important is that I confessed my feelings I've been hiding since we met . I want to get involved to those mysteries she keeps on hiding from the people . I want to be the reason of her smiles again. I want to keep her and I want her to feel all the love she deserves . She keeps staring at me and my heart begins to beats in tension . I am starting to accept that she will decline my I love you. I was about to get up as I slowly releasing my hands from her neck but she put it back around her neck . Im getting confused right now .

"Don't answer of you are not ready Lili. I can't take it anymore that's why I confessed . I love you since the day I laid my eyes on you . I know it's crazy but I can't stop thinking about you" I lean my forehead to her looking down to avoid her eye contacts . Pain starting to takes over me from her silence . I deep sigh and tries to stand up but again, she stop me and pull me back to her lap .

"Lili, it's okay if you can't love me back. I'm ready for it" and we are back in our staring competition .

"You didn't stop thinking about me?" She ask then I nod.

"Do you feel butterflies when you look at me?" I nod again .

"Does your blood boil when someone tries to talk to me?" I nod again .

"Does your heart beats madly when I'm around even if I'm not talking?" I nod again .

"Lili .. you don't have to question me that to prove yourself if I'm really in love with you" she finally let me stand up and I turn my back on her walking towards the kitchen .

"I said I love you but I didn't tell you to love me too . It's ok" I lied . I continue talking to her without lookimg at her pretending I'm busy cooking .It's not ok cause I'm hoping she feels the same way .

Pain still lingers in my heart as I bite my lower lip to pretend myself from tearing .

"Do you find yourself waking up and sleeping hoping I'm beside you?" I got flinched from her whisper . She is now at the back of me . I nod again slowly but still not looking at her but staring at the pan waiting for it to heat up to make something for our breakfast.

My eyes widen when I heard her laugh .
She laughed ! I quickly look at her . The most amazing face and voice like music in my ears . The first time I saw her laugh her ass out , her both arms wrapping around her stomach. I don't know the reason of her laughter but it's okay now . I felt my eyes starting to tears up again seeing the most wonderful moment I've been waiting for from her . I wiped my tears of joy and when she caught my actions , her laughter turns into worries again . She run towards me as she wipes my tears with her thumbs.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to-" I cut her words again . She misinterpret my tears .

"No no Lisa . I'm just glad I heard you laugh. It's a tear of joy believe me"

"Well.." she said .
"Well what ?" I asked while rubbing her hands up and down on my arms .

"I'm in love with you too Nini". She smile genuinely .

"Wh-what?" I asked in disbelief.

"I'm in love with you since the very first day you pull me inside this house. All of my questions came from what I felt and I am feeling until now" she confessed. I pull her and hug her tight .

"I laughed because all this time , I thought you don't feel the same way and find myself stupid" She whispered .

I stay silent and she pull me away still holding my shoulders . She closed the gap and was about to kiss my lips again but stops causing me to frowned .

"Nini do you smell that ?" She asked. My eyes widen in shocked.

"Fuck I forgot the pan !" I run to the kitchen before I burn my apartment down .