This is mainly Jangyoon and Bongbeom and I venture into other pairing but mainly those two ships. I am opened to taking request if you want one. (Updated the summary 2/21/2020)
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A/N: Again reference photos. Double update cuz I wanted to write two for the opening of this and I hope you all will enjoy!
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3rd Person's P.O.V:
It was October, the first fallen leaf, indication the changing of the seasons, it is also the first time Jangjun had laid his dark hue orbs upon Choi Sungyoon.
He was taken aback.... the younger man didn't know how to approach him or even merely wave to the rabbit like male's way. Nonetheless, he had become addicted to Sungyoon's world, it had become so empty and lifeless here in his own mundane head space.
He forgot how to live before the older man came his way, into the cracks of the forgotten ruins of his own shaken heart, Choi Sungyoon had awaken something inside of Lee Jangjun, he thought he would never feel again.
Love.... It gave him hope and new filters and views on the grim world he use to know, love gave him the ability to remember what it was like to believe in magic again. Too see everything not for what it is, but what it could be and that was astonishing in itself and he didn't want to ever stop this feeling.
He wished on every birthday candle and every 11:11! The younger man prayed on it, that one day, he could find someone to fill in the missing parts and broken puzzle pieces of his lonely heart. He hoped to find someone that would make him feel complete and that was his Sungyoon hyung!
But as fall turned into winter, winter turned into spring, spring turned into summer, and so on, it all became the same old routine of safety nets and bad morning coffee. The vicious cycle of same days and nights, same old faces and places, they changed but Jangjun's love was evergreen.
Yet like the fool that Lee Jangjun is, Sungyoon never intended to stay for long, he never did. Like ships in the night he never planned to stay, once the older man had his kicks and giggles, he made Jangjun look like a lovesick fool... The rabbit like man laughed at the younger's expense and turned away.
Hope is where love dies...
He packed up Jangjun's heart in a box with the rest of his outgrown things and never came back. He forgot about The younger man, Yet he could never forget about Sungyoon and the memories they shared, because unlike Choi Sungyoon, Jangjun could never have the heart to be so cruel and heartless. He can always see the shattered pieces of his love, every corner he turns and every place he goes, he would always try to look for the man that stole his heart all those years ago.
But he has to remind himself that he was never full time... only temporary, there was never a permanent place in the older man's heart for Jangjun and as much as it tore him apart inside, resilience is what he strives. He would not allow this to define him but it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt like hell. He gave Sungyoon every part of himself and without hesitation but love requires to be selfless.
Yet in the night, when it was him alone, they didn't say how long it would paralyze his heart, this vulnerability that left him bleeding on the bathroom floor, with each month, week, day, hour, and seconds Jangjun slowly felt the threads of his paper-thin heart start to come undone. He felt and heard the crack and snap of his abandon heart start to turn to dust. He felt stupid for letting Sungyoon hurt him even after he left, Jangjun loved with all his heart and never half-assed anything, he was either committed or gone.
It was May when he saw the ghost that haunted his dreams, that left his life just as easily as he came into it! Choi Sungyoon in the flesh, alive and well... he looks more optimistic and glowing, his eyes are bright and his smile shining.
While Jangjun still remembers every scar, it never left him but these days he had no time to worry about his own hauntings, he had his own life to take back, he was comatose in depression for two years and he didn't like who he saw in the mirror.
Now he is happy and has great friends and family that loves him, he is also a teacher for kindergarten and he loves his job but this was the first time he felt opposite.
"Oh hello Seongsaengnim, I am here to pick up my niece." He could never forget his face.
"Oh hello, who is your niece? It has been two years since their parting and Jangjun could never forget him but it seems one-sided.
"Uncle Y!" He could hear Naeun scream in glee.
"There she is." His eyes light up with excitement.
The little girl, no less than five comes running to the two males "Where is Daeyeol oppa?" The younger girl teases.
His eyes change for a moment but it might just be Jangjun's imagination. "He is at work but Daeyeol will be joining us later."
He wanted to say something, wanted to be angry, Daeyeol is the reason why Jangjun and Sungyoon parted, his parents didn't like Jangjun and never did, The older man always reassured him that it didn't matter but it seems as though it did matter.
"Seongsaengnim, please don't be sad! You are very handsome when you smile, please smile more often!" She hugs the younger man.
"Thank you Naeun-ah, I am not sad, it is nothing you have to worry about." He didn't want to trouble Naeun, she is a bright girl for her age and very caring towards everyone even to the other people that tease her.
He bowed politely to Naeun and to the man he once knew and never looked back to see if Changmin would do the same, or if they met eyes and fall in love like all those years ago.
He promised that he would never let anyone decrease him into paper thin lines and misplaced memories.
He knew he deserved better but for Sungyoon, he would go through it all over again, he would tell himself one little lie and the pain doesn't phase him. He knew he should get over the man he once knew or thought he did, he stopped mourning for that relationship along time ago, seeing Sungyoon today brought back feelings he buried along time ago and for good reasons.
-The End
(UPDATE:05/11/2020) Change the title pairing accidentally wrote Jangjoon instead Jangjun.
A/N: I hope you all enjoyed and comments and likes are much appreciated!
