This is mainly Jangyoon and Bongbeom and I venture into other pairing but mainly those two ships. I am opened to taking request if you want one. (Updated the summary 2/21/2020)
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Bomin:
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3rd Person's P.O.V:
"I am sorry Bomin-ah." Daeyeol couldn't sit here in a nice restaurant and lie through his fake boyish grin, he hated the sound of his tone and how bittersweet it felt and how it tasted more like acid.
"What do you mean Daeyeol?" He looked a bit flustered by the change of mood.
They were laughing and having a good time, until the older's behavior snapped and cracked into a more darker and regretful theme. He wonders what has caused him to be so rigged and distant, it frightened him a bit if he was being honest.
"I thought, I am really sorry, I just-" His tongue kept stumbling over his thoughts and his mouth had a mind of its own, as he tried to stop but go all at the same time. Looking for a perfect explanation as to why he is no longer enjoying his time.
"It is fine, you can be honest." He didn't want the older to feel stressed or sorry.
"I thought I was ready, for someone else, ready to date someone else." His candour out in the open, his bleeding heart on the walnut wood table, he couldn't hide the truth that slowly suffocated him into a frenzy.
Bomin is understanding and not quick to judge the man for his honesty, as the older had yet to reveal to him about past relationships and ex-lover that stole his heart and never returned, it is hard to come down from such devastation.
"Who is the lucky lover?" Bomin wanted to hear his story, if Daeyeol wanted to share with him.
"His name was Sungyoon, he isn't dead, but he might as well be, to me at least." Bad break up and wounds that never healed.
Bomin leaned forward, as his date's attitude had taken a sharp and rocky turn and into a whole other lane, it was a bit surprising, as the older man has been soft spoken and quite the gentleman.
"What happened?" He didn't know what to say but wanting Daeyeol to elaborate more on the subject.
"Apparently, being together for five years and for two of those years being engaged, well he had a change of heart. He had called it off and broke up with me, he said that this was just all too much and he wasn't ready for that kind of commitment. That was a year ago and now he is getting engaged to kind of mutual friend, Lee Jangjun, they had know each other way longer, before I even came into the picture. I can't hate the guy, he is actually a lovable and generous guy." Daeyeol knocked back his glass of pinot noir.
Allowing the burn to simmer his raging soul, at the thought of his ex-lover, he had spent so many nights crying his heart out and wondering what had made his lover change? What had made their love fade, it had come to his attention five months after their disastrous break up of a shit show. Sungyoon had found a new home, someone that he had give his own heart too and wanted a forever with.
"They are actually getting married in two months and the shitting thing is, lo and behold, I received an invitation in my mail, a fucking week ago and I was far from estatitic for the lovely couple." He was not holding back his emotional baggage and Bomin admired him for it.
"I was so furious, how could he do that, sending that invite to me!" His gentle and warm features morphing into an acid glare, no one is safe.
"This guy is shameless, how could he do something so cruel to you?" Bomin did not like this guy one bit, to hurt his hyung in that way and without regards to the past they shared. What the hell is that?
"I am sorry, I just thought, I was over him and then I got that stupid invite and all those repressed memories and feelings came rushing back like a title wave. I like you a lot Bomin and I want to keep dating, but I realized that I had tried to replace those feelings instead of dealing with them." His heart just couldn't leave the past but he knew he could not love a ghost anymore.
Daeyeol truly felt something for the younger but he could not string him along, even after a year! A year of trying to get back to the person he was before Sungyoon, it had all come undone in a single moment. He tried so desperately to remind himself that life is filling his lungs and the air is beating inside his chest and ready to be announced to the rest of his prescenes.
Bomin wanted only the best for him, he is willing to wait for the older man, these last three months had been nothing short of amazing and he would be more than willing to be whatever Daeyeol needs. His heart knew nothing but fondness and love for the older man and the way his eyes showed the universe in the tiniest of glimpses and he wanted to explore every inch and depth.
"Say no more hyung, I understand, you have no reason to explain yourself or your heart." He graced his hyung with a thousand watt smile.
"Thank you Bomin-ah, I really like you a lot but it would be selfish of me to lead you on." He tried to keep eye contact but his cheeks wouldn't stop flaming at the site of the younger who stared intensely at him.
"I would happily be lead on, only for you hyung." He rest his hand on top of the older man's clammy and shake palm.
"You will make someone happy Bominnie, that can't be me right now." He broke his own heart by uttering those sullen words but he had drowned himself in paperwork and bland coffee, he essentially turned on autopilot without any stops.
He will never know where he has truly been or seen until he has gotten back to reality, knowing the facts and statistics, his heart had to break before he can mend himself again, he can't keep waking up every morning pretending that the last five and a half years never happened. He couldn't ignore the empty side of his bed anymore, it had become daunting, the holes in his memories that he tried to dig deeper to forget every scar, it kept getting deeper and deeper until he no longer knew where he began or where he needs to be.
"Thank you for loving me on the days I forgot how too." Daeyeol tried to swallow the guilt.
"You are worth every sunrise and sunset Daeyeol hyung." Bomin is too good for him!
He doesn't deserve him and the sad thing is, he wants to be selfish and ask him to wait, it was on the tip of his tongue waiting to be uttered out without hesitation. "I will wait for you hyung."
"You shouldn't have too. I promise to be better but please don't wait for me, I am afraid I would break your heart." Daeyeol is uncertain about the future.
"Hyung, It would be an honor to have my heart be broken by you." Bomin wants to be there for everything, no matter how small or big it is, he would be there, he would stand by Daeyeol through all of it.
"I love you so much Daeyeol, there is only you in my heart." How could the older turn down such a powerful gestures.
"What am I gonna do with you Bomin-ah" The older takes a sip of his scarlet color wine.
Bomin's smile making Daeyeol feel giddy, this is unfair but life never is, one thing he is grateful for is finding Bomin. Maybe he should thank Sungyoon for breaking his heart, if not for that, the long run would have been more painful than this one.
