The little one

5

3 hours later

It was 10 o'clock I was sat on a bench with a lamppost over my head, it was flickering. From anyone's view I would have messy hair and red eyes, wet cheeks from crying and my nose would be running. I didn't know who I could call. If I called any of my brothers they would ask me what happened... and I'm not, I'm not ready to talk about it yet. My dad would assume the worse and he would be correct, Noah probably wouldn't live yo see another day, although he deserves it I couldn't ruin someone's life like he had ruined mine.

That only left my mum, I trust her of course I do and I know that she would be there for me but in a way she would be worse than my brothers and my dad combined and the though of that scared me.

So here I am, sat on a park bench wondering what my next move would be, I needed to go home soon, they're probably worrying about me but I felt paralysed, I couldn't move and all I could think about is the images that were flashing though my head and the words I was screaming not to long ago.

I looked at my phone and looked through the options of who to pick me up. I wouldn't explain anything, all I could hope for is that they would understand. My mum, that's who I was going to call, she would understand and if I ask her to not speak about it she'll respect my wishes for now.

I called her and put the phone to my ear with my nose still running, I sniffed and she answered. "Hey sweetie, how's it going?"
"Mum..." I burst into tears as my voice broke, I though I could be strong but it turns out that I wasn't and that he was right. "Can you please come and pick me up." I could hear how my mum was nervous to worried in point nought it a second. "Where are you? What happened?"
"I'm at the park, t-there's a bench and I'm s-sat on it." As for her other question I didn't want to speak about it, not at all. Maybe I will one day but tonight definitely wasn't the time for that to happen.

"I'll be there as quick as I can, stay in the phone with me okay? It'll be okay baby, I'm here, I'm here for you." She tried to calm me down with her words but with everything that has happen it wasn't working and it wasn't going to work. I wish I could forget about everything that has happened, it would be a whole lot easier, but my life is hardly easy.

My mum kept on saying things to calm me down b it wasn't working, I was sat in a bench crying while I was on the phone. About 5 minuets later my mum pulled up in front of me and I had to her in but it's like I had forgotten how to walk. Like I was a toddler getting ready to take its first steps into this bug and evil world. I got up with my legs shaking but I just ignored it with tears down my face, I was crying silently so I could hear my mums words but I zoned out into my thoughts. All I could tell is that she was worried by her tone of voice and I just say their blankly with wet cheeks not giving her what she wanted.

"Layla, honey, please speak to me, you're worrying me. Did he do something to you? Did he hurt you?" I cried louder and louder to signal that it was a yes to all the things she just said to me. She grabbed my hand but I flinched by her touch and quickly moved my hand away. I felt dirty, inside and out.

"I'm going to take you to the hospital."

"No... no no no no no! Please no... I-I can't, I don't want e-everyone to k-know, h-how weak I am, because that's what I am I'm w-weak and U-ugly and w-worthless."

I looked down when I spat those words out but I could see the way my mums heart broke in her eyes.

It was horrible for her to hear her daughter say those words about her when all she wanted was the best for her. All she done was respected her daughters wishes.

She nodded and just drove off not knowing what to say, well she knew exactly what to say.

"All those things he said to you, isn't true okay? Because he's a low life scum bag, who will never receive love, ever. But you, you're the sunshine who gives love to people who don't deserve it. You give love to everyone you can because that's you, when people are down I knew that you are always there to make them feel better. Everyone will agree with me how amazing you are and you might not see it yet and that's fine but just know that the ones around you love you with every little single bit of our hearts and if anything were to happen to you we would be worried so so worried, you may not be perfect in your eyes but In everyone else's eyes you're the best god damn thing that ever happened to this world and if I had to option I would put more of you everywhere, evacuee you're special and no one can take that away from you. Now you might think I'm saying this because I'm your mum, not at all. Even the person that could hate you the most wouldn't truly be able to hate you because you've given them no reason to because you're a sunshine, my sunshine and I'll make sure that you'll keep shining for as long as I live."