The little one

6

"I'm not in the mood to see anyone Alex, and I'm definitely not going to school so you can tell everyone to go without me."

"They already went, can I come in?"

"No."

It sounded horrible but I didn't want to see anyone, I wasn't in shock anymore and I knew what had happened to me and I knew that it was wrong. I had English everyday of the week and I would have to sit next to him, I knew that I couldn't avoid school forever but he done an unforgivable thing.

"In the words of Elsa 'please don't shut me out again, please don't slam the door'"

He knew I loved that stupid film and he knew that he would cheer me up by saying that but I wasn't happy, I was thinking about what happened, it was all in my head and I wanted revenge, but not in a dirty way that my brothers and dad would do but in a way that would give me justice and I knew that would be me going to the police, but got him to go I would have to explain what would happen, I wouldn't be able to do it alone and my mum was out today, she was visiting her sister.

If I wanted this done now my only option would be Alex, I loved him to bits and I trusted him with every ring I had but he was the most protective one out of all my brothers, he was the older one and was seen to look out for each and every one of us. But no matter what his reaction would be I needed to do this for myself for every girl that he had hurt or could hurt in the future.

"Fine, come in."

He opened the door a couple seconds later and had a surprised look on his face. He probably wasn't expecting me to say yes that quickly but he had no idea what he was going to hear.

"I need you to take me to the police station, or the hospital, I'm not sure where I'm meant to go or what I'm meant to do."

I put my hands to my head like I would usually do when I'm stressed or I concentrated. I could feel the tears prick my eyes and I got the words out of my mouth, me admitting it hurt a lot more than I thought it would be.

I quickly wiped away my tears so I didn't show any signs of weakness. Even when it was my brother I didn't want to show weakness, but before I wiped the tear away my brother had already noticed. I felt his arms being wrapped wound me as he was pulling me into a hug.

"Deep breaths" he calmed me down by rubbing my back and I quickly composed myself. "What... what happened?" I could tell he was trying to contain his anger as his grip got tighter around me like he was going to lose me and this was the last time he would hug me.

"L-last night, I went on a date as you know, I thought we would go t a restraint or something but it turns out we didn't, we went to his house, I thought it was weird at first but then many people have dates at their house and maybe he just wanted me to be comfortable."

"We got out and after an hour of talking he made a move in me and I didn't know how to react, he kissed me and I kissed him back but as soon as I did I knew it felt wrong, there was no connection or spark like people say that there was and it was a kiss, my first one and it was rubbish, but at least I knew that we had no connection and that I probably wouldn't go on another date with him."

"So I pulled away and I thought that was going to be the end of it... b-but then he... he grabbed me by the neck and he forced me to kiss him but I still didn't, he didn't care and he just carried on."

I felt the tears down my cheeks and Alex wipes them away from my face, he wasn't getting mad than he already was which helped because I knew that he wouldn't be mad at me.

"I told him to stop but he didn't, he forced himself on me, into me, I kept on saying stop I did but he didn't listen to me, he raped me..."

I was saying all this in tears and I was surprised that my brothers understood the words that I was saying. He gave me a hug and I could tell he was mad by his eyes. I didn't pay attention to it, instead I was crying as much as my eyes would let me, I thought I had used all my tears last night but I was wrong, I couldn't stop it. But no matter what my brother was there for me.