more than a fan- billie eilish

music

amelia's POV

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i miss my daughter. i love elizabeth and madison to death, but seeing your child in a hospital, in a coma with tons of injuries really hurts. elle is one of my best friends. that sounds so lame, but it's true. she is so sweet and i love her with all my heart. i know for a fact that the girls miss her as well. i would stay in the hospital with her if it weren't for elizabeth and madison. they deserve to sleep in a real bed and i'm not leaving them alone. billie is a sweetheart. i am so glad that elle found her. she saved elle. and seeing them together makes me so happy. we walk into the hospital everyday and i see one teddy bear on a table, and the other on one side of elle. on the other side, billie lays next to her with her arm placed carefully around her. i can tell the billie really cares about elle.

i still cannot believe this is happening. who would want to hurt my elle. she didn't deserve that. she deserves to be treated only with love and kindness. i wanted to kill the man that hurt her. but then i'd go to jail so maggie said no. maggie is very kind. i can see where billie gets it from. she is always looking out for everyone. she is such an environmentalist and it is amazing. i love talking to her about everything. the entire family is so amazing. they're all very talented. finneas plays the piano on the third floor all the time.

due to this being a children's hospital, there is a game room on the fourth floor and a music room on the third. i let finneas and claudia take the girls up to either of those floors so they don't have to stay in the room all day. they have so much fun. the third floor has a play station, a giant tv, arcade games, all sorts of things. on the fourth floor, there is a beautiful grand piano and several guitars. they talked about putting in drums but never did because it would be too loud. the fourth floor is completely sound proof so you can't hear anything going on from any other floor. there's a ukulele that i've listened to billie play only once. we try to get her out of the room every once in a while and if she does, she goes up to the fourth floor and plays the instruments. it's comforting to her. finneas and billie wrote a song and recorded it when the floor was empty except for them. the nurses have told me that billie whisper sings it to elle every night. elle would love the fourth floor. she would love to hear the song. it is absolutely beautiful. they've decided not to put it out because it's very personal.

"hey billie. you want to go up to the fourth floor? it might be good to get out of the room, stretch your legs a bit." finneas suggests. billie hesitates for a moment and then nods. "someone stay in here with elle." finneas tells us after billie gives him a look and then glances over at elle. "i'll stay" i tell him. "i'll stay too." maggie volunteers. "okay, let's go." finneas smiles a little. billie gets out of bed and switches the two build-a-bears. she gives elle the one that was on the table and takes the one that was under her arm. she hugs it closely to her and they walk out.

"how come billie switched the teddy bears?" i ask maggie. "well, as you know elle is still washed even though she is unable to do it herself. they spray her with elle's perfume. so when the bear is next to elle, it starts to smell like her. so she switches the bears when she leaves and takes the one the smells like elle. what she doesn't know is that i spray the bear when she's sleeping so the scent actually gets on it. anyway, she wants to have something that reminds her of elle with her at all times, so she takes the bear when she isn't with her." maggie explains. "she really is an extraordinary girl. you did good with that one" i smile. "you're so sweet. i hope you know that we all love elle very much. i am so glad that billie found elle. she has been so much happier with her. i hope she wakes up soon." maggie replies. "i hope she does too." i nod.

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finneas's POV

i watch as billie walks over to the piano. she sits down and places her hands on the keys. she starts playing the instrumental part of the song we had written a few days ago.

"i want to wake up next to you.
i want to see your eyes open
and look into mine of blue.
i want to be
the first thing you see
i want to wake up next to you."

(me so... don't steal that)

i sing as she gets to the lyrical part. she stops and breaks down in tears before finishing. i put my arm around her and rub her arm up and down. "it's alright billie. she'll be okay." i whisper. "how do i know that?!" she pushes my arm off of her and stands up. "billie, i know she will. she's doing great. she'll wake up. i promise." i say, trying to keep my shit together without falling apart. "i really hope she does." she says through tears. "come here" i order, opening my arms. she falls into them and sobs into my shirt. "i know. i know" i say in a soft tone and hug her back.

after a while, we get back to the piano. billie clears her throat as i start playing the tune to 'unforgettable'

🎵"unforgettable
that's what you are
unforgettable
though near or far
like a song of love that clings to me
how the thought of you does things to me
never before
has someone been more

unforgettable
in every way
and forever more
that's how you'll stay

that's why darling
it's incredible
that someone so unforgettable
thinks that i am
unforgettable too

unforgettable
in every way
and forever more
that's how you'll stay

that's why darling
it's incredible
that someone so unforgettable
thinks that i am
unforgettable too"🎵

i hear a sniffle from behind me and turn to see my mom recording billie and i. i smile and billie turns and waves at her. "you guys sound really good." she says as she puts her phone away. "thanks mom. i'm going to go check on elle." billie says and stands up. "did she just-" my mom points to billie in shock. "yeah" i nod. "my mom hugs billie tightly and billie hugs her back. "i know just heard you sing but this is different" my mom tells her. "i know, i know. now let me go check on my girlfriend please" billie laughs. i notice that billie forgot the bear and i toss it to her. "thanks." she smiles. we all walk down to elle's room and billie lays down next to her. "i miss you. i hope you know that" billie says and kisses elle's hand.