more than a fan- billie eilish

tourists

billie's POV

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"hey angel. it's been 3 weeks since i heard your beautiful voice. the doctor's said you may be in a coma for a while, but that's alright. just know that i'm not going to leave. the man that hurt you was taken to court and arrested yesterday. i went and spoke with the judge on the podium or whatever it is. i sat in the little box next to her. finneas, claudia, my dad and my mom all talked as well. the fans that witnessed it also spoke. he got what he deserved. i'm really hoping you wake up soon. i miss you. a lot." i whisper and kiss her hand. i'm currently laying next to her in her hospital bed. i haven't left to often. i didn't want to leave yesterday or the day before, or the day before, but i had to. elle's family came down and they've been staying at the hotel my family is staying at. they try to get me to go back with them every night but i always stay. the nurses know i stay, and so do the doctors. i know they don't mind.

"hey billie, hey elle" finneas greets us as they all file in one by one. somehow all of us fit in this small room and i instantly feel uncomfortable. "how long has elle been sleeping? that's a really long nap" madison asks. "i don't know madison, i guess she's just really tired" amelia lies. i see elizabeth look up at her mom and her mom gives her a sympathetic shrug, saying 'what else was i supposed to say'. "how's she been?" my mom asks. "she's moved a little. not too much but just a little. i thought maybe she was going to wake up but she didn't. it's alright though. she'll come around. won't you angel?" i smile weakly and rub her knuckles with my thumb. "i'm sure she will. i hope she does." amelia nods. "so, what are your plans for today?" i ask amelia. "i'm going to take the girls around the area. show them some of the stuff i saw when i was younger. the golden gate bridge, the presidio, the palace of fine arts, so on. i'm sure they don't want t be cooped up in the hospital all day. i for one really want to stay here but touristy activities will be quite fun as well." amelia explains. "i can take the girls for you" my mom offers. "i could never let you do that" amelia giggles. "she's your daughter amelia. you should be here." my mom argues. "better yet, billie could. you need some fresh air. i know you want to stay with elle, but it'll be fun. i promise. take fin, claudia and sully with you as well. your father and i will get to know amelia. please" my mom begs. "fine." i agree. there's no point in arguing with my mom, she always wins by making you feel guilty until you finally agree with her. "yay!" she claps. "you brought me a change of clothes yes?" i ask. "yep" my mom nods and hands me some of my clothes. i take them to the bathroom and change. "let's go children, and elizabeth and madison" i joke. "you're a child. claudia and i are adults i'll have you know" finneas scoffs. "come on." i roll my eyes. "oh shit- shoot" i stutter. i run over to elle and kiss her forehead. "be good for me angel" i smile. "love you guys." i wave and we all leave. "you guys ever been swimming in the ocean?" i smirk.

we drive to the hotel and our swimming suits and madison's water wings and then drive near the golden gate bridge we walk down to the beach and i admire the view. mom was right, this was a good idea. "okay girls, i must warn you. do not turn that corner. that leads to the naked beach. we do NOT want to go over there." i explain, making all of them laugh. i giggle and roll my eyes. "let's swim!" i exclaim. we all get into the water after i double check that madison's floaties are on correctly and blown up all the way. i see a cliff and jump off of it, making a huge splash. "there's a smaller one. we'll start you on that one." i point it out to elizabeth. "really?!" she asks excitedly. "yeah, we'll jump off together. it'll be fun. unless you don't want to." i tell her. "i want to! come on" she pulls me to the cliff. "take my hand." i hold my hand out and she grabs it in hers. "one. two. three!" i count down and we jump at three. "WAHOO!" i hear elizabeth scream. we jump off a few more cliffs and splash finneas and claudia and madison. eventually we get tired and leave.

we drive to the presidio and the palace of fine arts, only because amelia wanted them to see it. then we drive to height street. "let's go in there" elizabeth points a store out. we walk in and i get them both two things they chose. we continue walking and then we see a huge record store. "there." finneas says in awe. "okay finneas, whatever you want" i laugh. i lead them all into the building and we look around. "this place used to be a bowling alley you know?" i tell them. "really?" madison asks. "yep, i read about it a while ago." i nod. "oh my god! that's you!" elizabeth exclaims as she finds a record with my album cover on it. "let's get it" i smile. we look around a while longer and get a few more records and cds. they even had t-shirts with band names and some posters. i get the girls whatever they want and we continue walking.

we go to the san francisco mall and elizabeth leads us to the foot locker. "i love these shoes!" she exclaims as she sees a pair of shoes with the continents on it. in a messy font it reads 'save out planet' all over the edges. "you got em" i smile. "what size are you?" i ask. "no billie, i couldn't possibly let you do that. i told you, my mom gave me money" she tries to stop me. "nope. this is my treat" i tell her. "whatever" she rolls her eyes. she tells me her size and i also get some shoes for madison and myself. finneas and claudia get some shoes and then we walk around a bit more. "build- a - bear! can we please go in there?" madison begs. "of course" i laugh. we walk in and they both chose a bear. i get two, one for me and one for elle. i chose one i know elle would like and i get a different one for myself. i get her's and mine stuffed and get clothes for them. i name mine 'porn' and her's 'hub'. i buy everything except for finneas and claudia's stuff because finneas refused to let me. "you guys want to go anywhere else?" i ask. "i'm tired of carrying all the bags." finneas whines. "i'm tired." madison yawns. "me too" elizabeth agrees. "alright, sounds like we need to get you back to your mama" i suggest. "yes" finneas nods. "i meant- okay" i shake my head.

we get back to the hotel and drop everything off and then drive to the hospital. "hey guys, how'd it go?" amelia greets us. "it was amazing!" madison exclaims. "yeah, billie is awesome!" elizabeth agrees. i smile and pose, making them all laugh. "anything new with elle?" i ask my dad. "not yet honey." he frowns. "eventually." i hope. "i'm tired, can we go back to the hotel?" madison yawns. "okay sweetheart, let's go"amelia nods. they all leave after saying goodbye to elle and i. i get back in bed with elle after taking my shoes off. i scroll through my instagram with one of her hands in mine. i see tons of edits of elle and i together, many with the caption 'we miss you elle' or 'you can beat this' or 'fuck that guy that tried to kill this angel'. there are a lot more and i like all of them. i take a picture of elle and i's hands and put it on my story. 'i miss you' i put in small letters next to it. "i really do miss you angel. sleep well." i say and turn off my phone and the light. i kiss her forehead and try to fall asleep.