i thought i had lost you // destiel au

One

I'm coming back, I promise. I love you.

The words cycle through his head said by Castiel. Castiel who will never speak a word to him again. Who will never see their son.

His Castiel is gone, forever.

"Are.. are you sure?" Dean asks, voice shaky and tears welling up in his eyes.

"Yes. They haven't seen him in weeks."

They don't even have a body.

"There's... no body?"

"Not that they have found, no."

"Then he can still be alive, he can still be out there!"

"Mr. Winchester-"

Dean slams his hands on the table. "Please, there's no way he's gone! He's strong, he has to come home! He-"

"Enough!" Dean cowers back from the table. "I'm sorry, Mr. Winchester. But prince Castiel has passed. There will be a funeral on Tuesday and you can say your goodbyes there."

Dean grew furious, not caring if he angers the king. "There's not even a body! What's the point if-"

"Dean-" Sam quiets him.

"If there's no body it's not a real goodbye!"

"Dean Winchester!" Chuck yells.

"This is all your fault!" The room falls silent. "If you hadn't sent him out, he's still be here! He didn't even get the chance to meet his son! I didn't get a chance to say a proper goodbye!" Dean screams, tears building up in his eyes. "Castiel is gone, I can never see him again, and it's all your goddamn fault!"

"That is enough!" Chuck bellows. "I do not believe you heard me before, this discussion is over. Now you are to stay in your room until further notice. Do you understand?"

Dean huffs, grabbing Jack and marching upstairs to his room. He sets Jack in his little bed, giving him a toy to play with. The omega grabs a hidden bottle of whiskey from a drawer, popping it open and taking a swig. He knows he shouldn't be drinking around Jack, but it's what he needs right now.

Castiel promised. He promised he'd come back. That he'd come back to Dean, that he'd meet their child. He promised he'd come back.

And yet he's not.

—

short chapter to start it off, just to get it out there. i hope you enjoyed!

i might not update for a little while because i wrote for like ten hours straight today, making 6 chapters. i might update tomorrow but i might take a few days to a few weeks.

i'm very tired, it's almost 2am

goodnight

12.15.19