It's okay, Draco

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✿ 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐰𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 ✿

*(y/n)'s pov*

I decided to pay a visit to the Malfoy manor after my mother told me about the ridiculous mission. He can't do this, this is too dangerous!

I flinch as I hear the sound of the loud thunder. I run as fast as I could to the manor while holding my hood. I didn't bring an umbrella because I didn't know it was going to rain all of a sudden.

Finally, I arrive in front of the door and decided to pound on it instead of ringing the doorbell since the rain was really heavy, I figured they wouldn't hear it. For a few minutes, no one came so I start to shout his name until someone open the door,

"Oh thank God Dra-" I stop talking when I saw Narcissa in front of me, dumbfounded and suprised to see me. My face was the same as hers,

"Oh (y/n)! Come in!" she pull me in the house and hurriedly go to the bathroom to find a towel. I didn't care about my wet clothes, I just wanted to see his face.

Then Narcissa came back with a towel and fresh clothes on her hand,

"Here, go change first and then we'll talk" her face seems very concerned so I went to the bathroom and get changed into the new dry clothes that she gave me.

After that, I went out of the bathroom to the living room. Narcissa then bring two cups of hot tea with her from the kitchen.

"Go on, sit down" well, I didn't expect she'd be this nice since her husband is completely the opposite. There was an awkward silence until I apologize,

"I'm sorry to come at this late at night.." she waved her her hand and said,

"Oh no, it's okay really" I nodded understandingly.

"Uhm.. I'm sorry about my husband forcing Jacob to cast the cruciatus curse on you, he can be a little harsh..." I can only hummed in response, "So.. Why are you here?" she continue,

"I-I.. Uh.. I want to see your son.." she raise her eyebrows,

"Are you friends with him?"

"Yeah.."

She suddenly chuckles which made me look at her, dumbfounded.

"I knew what your relationship is with my son" I mouth an 'O' to her and continue to look the ground.

"He's in his bedroom, I'm sure he's still awake" she gesture her hand to the stairs telling me to go up. I nodded after she gave me the directions to his bedroom and went upstairs.

*third person's pov*

(y/n) nervously knocked on the door and in seconds Draco opened the door thinking it was her mom. Draco almost grinned and hugged her but he gained control of himself and asked her,

"Why are you here?"

(y/n) held in her tears. She felt her heart clenched seeing that Draco didn't even miss her.

"I know about your mission" Draco widened his eyes and immediately pulled her in his bedroom.

"How did you know? You weren't supposed to know such thing!" he tried to whisper but failed to do so. Narcissa knew what was going on upstairs, they were starting to fight but she let it be their business.

"And you weren't supposed to volunteered into such thing!" (y/n) snapped back. Draco gripped his hair and sat on the edge of his bed. That's when she notice the tattoo mark on his arm,

"Draco... You can't do this. I-it is too dangerous!" he scoffed and looked up to her,

"If I don't do it.. Then he'll want you to do it" (y/n)'s tears were now starting to travel down her cheeks slowly.

"I know..." she walked over to sit beside him on the bed and rest her head on his left shoulder. There was silence, a comfortable one. (y/n) took this time to examine his huge bedroom. The queen sized bed she was sitting at was across the door and the bathroom was in front of the bed. She did notice that his bedroom is tidy despite that he is so stressed out. She would expect his bedroom to be messy. (y/n) were pulled out from her thoughts when Draco sighed,

"I just didn't want you to do a horrible bidding for him" she raised her head and forced Draco to look at her with her hand,

"And I don't want you to do it too"

They both knew that one of them have to do it whether they like it or not. He wouldn't take no for an answer. Draco then trailed his gaze at (y/n)'s lips which is really tempting. He missed her so much yet he held back for a long time, he had always craved for her touch, her lips.

(y/n) was feeling the same thing and next thing they knew, they were kissing. It felt like it was rushed but to them, it felt perfect.

Draco lay her back to the bed slowly while still kissing her lips. They were both fighting for dominance and soon Draco win by biting her bottom lip slowly. (y/n) moan at the feeling which made him smirked upon hearing it.

He had loved and missed the sound of it. He wanted to hear more of it so he start trailing the kiss down to her neck, jaw and collarbone leaving hickeys all around. (y/n) enjoyed the feel of it but she enjoyed it more if his lips were on hers so she pulled his face up to her face and kissed him again until they were breathless.

(y/n) kept her both hands on his jaw and her head connected to his. Draco loved the position as much as she loved it. He loved that he was so close to her, smelling her scent was his favorite. They both smiled as they lay on the bed, side by side.

But Draco's smile were somewhat... Sad.

(y/n) turned to his side and hugged him closer to her, afraid that he'll disappear. She didn't want him to leave her again, she didn't want him to avoid her.

She didn't want to be in pain because of him.

Draco hugged her back by putting his right hand on her head and his left hand on her waist. They didn't want to move.

However, their problem wasn't solved. They both knew that one of them had to finish it.

"(y/n) you do know that one of us have to do this right?" (y/n) hummed in response under his hold. Draco felt guilty enough that he felt he needed to tell her the truth sooner than later.

"I.. I have something to tell you..." his voice sounded so serious that made (y/n) tensed up.

"The truth is, I volunteered not only trying to protect you but because, I was trying to gain back my family's reputation. You do understand me right?..."

(y/n) slowly got up from his hold after she heard what he said.

*(y/n)'s pov*

How could I have been such an idiot? Of course he wanted to gain back the reputation of being the most reliable death eater.

He sit up immediately after I got up from his hold. As I was about to stand up, he hold my arm and pull me back down to his side.

What was I expecting? That he'll change, for me?

"Look at me.."

I didn't want to yet I did. His soft grey eyes were now staring straight at my (e/c) eyes. I can feel my eyes getting teary again.

"Please understand (y/n), if I don't do this my family will be very disappointed at me and my fathe-"

"It's okay, Draco" I smile at him as tears travel down both my cheeks. His eyes were full of pain and so was I.

I stand up leaving his touch and walk to the door. Just as I was about to turn the door knob, I look behind my shoulder to meet his teary gaze, I smile and say something that I never thought I would say,

"I guess we were never meant to be together anyway"