It's okay, Draco

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It's over...

We're free...

I feel relieved, but.. Why don't I feel happy?

Harry knelt down on the ground, tired. I slowly walk to him and kneel down beside him, "You.. Did it" I put my hand on his shoulder and smile sincerely at him. He return the smile back and we both go back to the castle to tell the others that we've won. When we got back inside, I can see there are many pile of bodies, most of them was the Death Eaters, some might've escaped earlier, knowing that their Lord was dead.. For real this time.

"Harry!" Hermione yelled from afar and ran to us, hugging Harry, followed by Ron. I smiled at the sight in front of and start to walk backwards slowly, trying not to interrupt them. I was going to check the others until, "Y/n, where do you think you're going?"

"Huh? Oh, I was going to check the others?" Hermione giggled and pull me towards the group hug. I smile again and hug them for a brief moment before I pull back, "You three should catch up, I've got something I wanted to do"

That was a lie...

They nod and I went to the Hogwarts's front entrance. I stuff my hands and pockets and start to kick small pebbles here and there. Not knowing what to do with myself.

The sun was shining brightly as I look at the blue sky, "Ah, at least the sky is not the same as my feelings right now.." I smile as I let a tear slide down on my left cheek. I chuckle to myself and wipe the tear away, "What am I doing? He left... For good"

Yeah, keep telling yourself that.

I bit my lip, realising that I was talking to myself, convincing that he's still a good person.

Maybe he is, maybe he's not.

Silence surrounds me until some of the students came outside to get a fresh air, I inhale and exhale through my dry mouth slowly, maybe I just need some company right now.

*5 years later*

After years of studying hard, I finally got my dream job, being an Auror. The bell rings as I open the door to the Three Broomsticks. Harry, Hermione, Ron, Ginny and Neville was waiting for me at a table as they wave at me.

Harry eventually respond back to Ginny's feeling and now are dating together, Ron and Hermione were getting pretty serious as I hoped for, Neville was dating Hannah Abbott that I've never really met in Hogwarts. I wave at them with a smile as I walk to them until I bump into someone. I immediately apologised, "Oh, sorr-"

"Y/n..."

I take a look at the person that I bumped to, why do I know that voice somewhere? My heart feels like it stop beating as I look at his silver eyes staring back at me wistfully. My e/c eyes start to form tears as my lips quiver, it's him. The person I've been trying to find.

"Dr-Draco... It's you..." before I could say another word, he hold me close to his body, hugging me tightly. I can tell he was crying when I hear sobs and feel his body shake, "I'm sorry, please... Forgive me"

I don't know what to do with my hands, I was too surprised, should I hold him? Am I happy that we got to cross path again after all this years? Am I still mad that he left me that day? It was painful, but I know better than to dwell on the past. I hold his shoulder and pull away from him slowly.

I didn't care about the people that was looking at us in the bar, I ignore my friends that was gawking at me from afar and pull Draco outside onto the cold winter outside. I didn't pay attention to the coldness and continue to pull him away from people's prying  ears. Finally, we arrive at an alley where no one could hear us, "Where have you been, Draco?" I asked slowly, my lips shaking because of the coldness and the urge to just breakdown in front of him.

"I..." he was taking too long to answer so I look at him in the eyes again.. His eyes, the one that I fell for. I could see there was a little bit of bags under his eyes, his smile.. I wish I could see it everyday. Draco did form a little bit of stubble and I noticed some few wrinkles, possibly from stress. As I take in every feature on his face that change throughout this years, he did the same to me,

"Disappointed?" his face change to an alarmed expression and instantly cup both my jaws,

"What? No! Never!" it was my turn to be alarmed, he saw my expression and immediately let down his hands to his side and apologised, "Uh.. I'm sorry about that" he start to avert his gaze anywhere but me, nervous. I smile genuinely and place my right hand on his stubble, grazing my thumb over it. It feels sharp on my palm...

"It's okay, Draco"

All the memories of us spending time together came back piece by piece.. I missed it so much. Before I could stop myself from saying it aloud, it was too late,

"I wish I could grow old with you" my e/c eyes went wide after saying that and instantly let go of my hand from his face and cup my mouth with my other hand. That was a newfound courage. I thought he was going to just look at me awkwardly and just stand there, not saying anything. But the unexpected came, he wrap his left arm around my waist and the other on the back of my head, pulling me to his body and kiss me passionately.

The kiss went on, warming my lips from the winter cold, our tongues swirl at each other's. Both of us were not willing to end the kiss, we feel desperate for it, we both can't help but miss each other.

Oh, how many years have I wasted without you Draco?

Unfortunately, due to the lack of oxygen that we need, we're forced to end the kiss and just stay there, still wrapped in each others arm, forehead resting on each others. Our breath was ragged from the kiss. Suddenly, Draco grinned, "That can be arranged"

"What can?"

"Y/n.. I know this is not the best timing to ask you, but I've wanting to ask you this.. y/n, will you marry me?" 

My eyes instantly went wide and I squeal in delight as I look at him directly, happy that he finally got to ask me, "Are you kidding?! I've been waiting for you to ask me that! And yes! I'll marry you!" I hug him tightly, nuzzling my head on his chest, "Draco, I love you."

He stiff and gently push me from his embrace to look me in the eyes, "I love you too, y/n. But.. You've been waiting for me to ask you that? After all I've done to you?" his carefree face slowly changes into a guilty one. He still feels guilty, but I think I can understand after 5 years of thinking about it. He had no choice but to follow his parents anyways. He had loved, and still love both his parents to this day. The love for parents.. I understand that in so many ways.

"Draco, the past is the past" I smile at him and kiss him again. Finally, we get to be together again.

I did the right choice by waiting for him after 5 years and now we crossed paths again, I guess we were meant to be together anyways. Back then, deep down, I knew I was wrong.