Dear Jeremy

The Charger

Now we spent the whole entire summer just vibing together. As the new school year approached we started to seperate. Most of us was still in school so we had to get busy with them books. When summer ended me and Jeremy basically ended. Nothing said we just ended. But me being me i still checked up on him. He was now with this girl who doesnt matter but that didnt bother me. Now i know you wondering how i was not bothered.
   I was unbothered because i actually loved jeremy. When you love somebody your happy cor them no matter what. You have to accept that they want to be with someone else even if its not you.
But fuck all that even though i was secretly  hecking ok n jeremy i was on some me shit. No i didnt fall outta love with him to be real so many nights i wanna to hit his line but didnt wanna take the chance of being rejected. Now Jeremy was blunt af, he never cared he just was brutally blunt say what he thought at that moment.
Me and Ke was still tight so most days after school me and her would be at the trap just chilling. She was dating this pass around ass nigga. He was a total bum like completely. Nigga been burned more than ya granny favourite fryin  pan. He literally known for having that hot shit and she literally took that risk. I aint go lie she a brave one cause youd never see it with me.
Although me and her was good friends we constantly bumped heads because bitches can not accept honesty. I know i can come off real mean but ive always meant well. Never wanted to be a bitch i just believe in tough love if i sit up and hold my friends hands and baby them when they fuck up what are they learning... i have to give them the honest truth and push them to hold they chest high and handle life accordingly. Compared to me they was lost little puppies. Somebody had to lead the way and it had to be me. I couldnt have my girls out here bad i had to lead us to greatness.
Now as the months passed less exciting shit started happening. I was on a schedule of school sleep repeat. Nothing fun really happening. Just living life. Keisha was trying to get me to talk to Jeremy but uhn uhn. Yeah im real prideful cause a few times that aint go so good for me and i aint need him recrushing my ego. I was half ass going to school id always go late. No purpose my uncle was just a lazy asshole who decided to get up early and shower for 2 and half hours when it was time for me to get ready for school dam near everyday with no fucking where to go.
Now my white friend Vicky actually moved in the trap, she was real black but thats my dawg. She was fucking with Noah. Now Noah was my shorty fr. I can talk with him about anything and not have to worry about it getting blown up or turned around. I cant rember how many times we discussed his brother. Anything  we talked about was safe and he became one of my favorite male friends. And even to this day he is still the friend. But him and Vick was a fun thing they aint put too much into eachother cause it was just sex. And they kept me out of it so i aint bud in.
   I had got up and go tf cute this one day. They was trending the movies and some of my peoples was going so i was going. I went to the movies and had a good time Nd we all had went to White Castle afterwards. While im eating my food i get a message from Jeremy and my real thirsty ass opened it with the quickness and to.my suprise all that nigga needed was a charger lime why dude i thought he wanted some of this coochie but nawh he wanted a mf charger. But me being me i packed that shit up and told my friend to call her mama since she was our ride. When i got in thd house and told him i was there and he got rhere in literally 2 mins he only lived around the corner but damn okay he wanted that charger. So i let him in and follow me to my room and i get a charger out and try to hand it to him. He takes it out my hand and just starts kissing me. Yeah i knew what time it was. He layed me down and started kissing my neck and I was just mesmerized he touched my coochie and I  was ready for all of it. Yall know what happened next ion gotta go into details. When we finished im letting him out and see he dont have tbe charger so i tell gim he left it this nigga flash his phone at me and his phone on 97% like okay nigga you coulda just said you wanted to fuck cause i wouldve got here quicker but umm okay.
  After that we went back to our normal lives no talking to eaxhother. Just hi's and byes. I didnt think too much about it at this point i normalized it. My biggest mistake.