Dear Jeremy

Catfish

3 Years later
   So much has changed i just got out of a dumbass  3 year relationship with a nigga i thought was the one but was sadly mistaken. He was a big part of my life qt the moment but when I really look back he wasnt shit and was a constant cheater so i fully washed my hands with that nigga. I then caught the nigga cheating, then cut him rammed his head into a mirror Nd it had been too much its shouldnt had gotte that far i should've ended it way before i did.

Its a random ass night and im laying in my bed watching catfish and yes i started catfishing random people in my phone including Jeremy.
Now everybody but jeremy responded how i thought they were but Jeremy he talki g like he know who coochie it is. Now i play along and was craxking up then this man go send me a picture of his dick apologizing saying he hope we was even. Baby that man was so blessed and yeah it was better than before. I wanted it so yeah i yexted him and told him it was me and from there we sparked conversation. And just like always it sparked my feelings. And then he fell asleep on me. KILT THE WHOLE MOOD. But i aint trip cause I know i can have him. A few nights later i was up scrolling and guess whos active. Yesss i shot my shot and i scored. All he needed was a lyft and ik happily paid for it cause it was g ok be worth it he told me have the baby oil ready and i did just that he came in here and started rubbing these buns right ik thought we was finna get busy busy. Tell me why my coochie go dry, no my coochie dont do this often but that damn birthcontrol had m th hormones unleveled and im allergic to latex so the two really dont mix and yeah he had on a condom so he spit start my shit and i knes it threw him off cause we wasnt used to this shit. After we was done he left aint hear from him fr. But a couple weeks later he came over and was happy to see me so im like okayyy it wasnt terrible.  But we all kicking it he leave and MuMu pregnant ass bm Malaysia pull me to the side like Jeremy was just looking all into yo ass. I was geeked like yeah say less. She say get on that im like pidd. She aint know about me and jeremy past cause she was just getting to fully know me we were just now becoming friends and i was loving it. A week later MuMu calls and tell me Jeremy moving in and he gk have to sleep with me so unlock the door. Baby say less. He come in and i had just made food but it wasnt none for him so yes i went and cooked him some. He was playing the game but i was tired i went to sleep. 
And a little while later he came in and yeah that was one of my favorite nights.
    As time goes on Noah moves in too and we all was getting jiggy vibing. Malaysia had Azariah and we was lit. Jeremy would sleep with me sometime no we didnt fuck every time he slept with me but i loved his presence so much that was heaven for me. Everything was perfect.
      Its certain levels of disrespect i would never think he would cross but yeah niggas suprise you everyday man. He brung a bitch in my house ans yeah we werent together and he could fuck whomever but in my house fr and not even just that in the room right next to mines and the bitch was no loud and i was dead ass in here crying and going crazy cause why. I called TayTay and she told me to relax and that i should keep cool. Cause as bad as i wanted to do something it wasnt shit for me to do he a grown ass man. Later that day he tried to converse with me but i really couldnt. We becane cordial over the next few days not really but somewhat.
Me Nani and Malaysia had figured out some schemes and was finessing nighas getting good money. We had seen MuMu nem do pills so we wanted to try. They yold us jo and tried to talk us out of it but eventually let us do it. Its one of the best feelings that ive ever felt. We all just cool vibing then here comes the pill talk.
      If your not familiar with pill talk its when everybody start telling how they feel being sentimental. Now me nani and Malaysia was all in my room i was sitting on the floor. Jeremy walks in and say dont we need to talk. Im all shook up like yeah. The girlz leave the room and im just nervous stomach all in knots. He apologizes abouf having the bitch here cause this still my house and he wont fling no hoes in my face. He was also feeli g like the audience around us kinda force problems on us and we gonna leave them outta shit. I was all for it and we hugged and I was glad we had the talk we had. I never liked not be cool with him. Now baby yall know we got jiggy that night. That pill sex something else. Its just another level and him already being great at sex just makes it even better. He had me running hopping jumping skilping all across the bed. I loved it. Every second. We did a few more pills and it damn near ended wit us fucking  every time but the last.
     I dont know why when it came to him at times id be speechless. I called him outside to tell him how i was feeling and i couldn't even. I ran into the house. I knew i had to get it out but face to face wasnt working. I locked myself in the bathroom and just broke down and wrote him a long ass paragraph. He texted back saying he delt like we should talk about it when we not high ass giraffe titties but i just said i guess cause i felt like that was the perfect time. But he reponded anyways and now im laying on n the bathroom floor balled up crying my fucking eyes out. He basically told me he loved me but he wasnt ready for a relationship  and we didnt have to fuck and hed still be happy with me. I got up off that floor and pulled myself together it wasnt shit for me to but accept it. I got myself together went and laid with Nani. No matter how bad id be feeling i can always lay with her and it be fixed just by her presence thats my baby fr.
    So a few days later this nigga Jeremy had the nerve... the audacity to bring a bitch in here again and i was so over it cause just a few days ago exactly a few days ago you couldnt hold anybody heart now this your girl and all this other shit like woww. We got this fat wig ass bitch in here instigating and boom now we dont like each other great so of course it look like ima hater right no not at all. But fuck them im sitting her hung over Jeremy breaking my heart and he dont care. Im sitting there deep in my thoughts when i realize worrying about him is the wrong shit cause where the fuck is my period.