lies and the new guy - demus

Chapter 5

Remus's P.O.V

tw: intrusive thoughts

"I'm sorry Patton, I don't care what you say, I still feel guilty about what just happened. But thank you so much for the cookies. I think deceit needs one right now." I say with guilt filling my voice, grabbing a few cookies which was still offered to me. Yes, Patton's eyes always glow, but its horrible when my eyes glow. "look kiddo, you are fine. I just got a bit...frightened. That's all. Now my chicken nuggets are going to get burnt if they're going to stay in there for any longer so I have to go running back down that dark scary hallway that could have some creepy crawly death dealers there so before I get anymore scared. Right, I'm going have a good movie night." After he said that he ran down the hallway probably at full speed.

"hay Dee? are you feeling any better now?" I asked. He looked over the back of the sofa with a warm smile and nodded. I walked back over and passed him all the cookies and said "I'm really tired and because of that I am going to bed! Have a good night deceit." And with that I ran to my room without letting deceit say anything else. I'm sure he'll be fine... hopefully. He has sir. Slithers-a-lot he should be safe.

I ran into my room, trying not to slam the door but that didn't work. As soon as I got in, I ran under my desk and pulled in the chair as much as possible. Ever since I was a child when thoughts get to loud or I just needed comfort, I would hide under my desk, bed or even just sit curled in the corner because it was...nice? More like, comforting.

Imagen the knife going into Patton's skin... would it go in fast? Would you see blood as soon as you put the knife on the skin, or would it take a few seconds? Just shut up. Please. Oh! You remember how soft and shiny deceits scales were. You could easily have just ripped at least one off. Or you could just kill his snake. OH! MAYBE YOU COULD KILL YOUR BROTHER! You could kill him then he won't hurt you anymore.

"have you ever thought about killing your brother. Maybe you could kill your brother, then if your family found out they would disown you." I said, not realising I had been crying since I got under the desk. I cry my eyes out as I speak knowing Fullwell that Thomas only hears it In my normal non-crying guiltless voice. I just want all this to stop. Why did I have to be intrusive thoughts? Its been a month in and obviously worse than ever.

I need someone to help me but I can't go. Maybe I could try just spending time with roman... maybe? I begin wiping my eyes when I heard a knock on the door. Crap. I quickly scoot out of the desk and ran to my bed saying, "hello who is it?" then the door cracked open with deceit on the other side. "it's me... are you okay? You've been acting... weird over the last week. I'm beginning to worry."

Don't tell the truth. He's going to hate you. If he knows what you think, he will do what everyone else did to you, leave you. He won't were stuck together. Just. lie.

"you don't have to w-worry...I-I'm f-fine... I'm so s-sorry I shouldn't b-be crying. I-I don't k-know why I'm c-crying I- "I was cut off by deceit diving into a hug. Well this has gone wrong. Crap. Stop crying. stop crying. He thinks you're pathetic. You are pathetic. He'll leave you because he hates you. While my head was saying this, I gripped deceit tightly. I couldn't let him go not this time.

"shhhh. It's okay. I wont leave until you want me to. I would never leave you." He said in a hushed tone "do you think you could tell me what's wrong?" as he said this, I hugged him tighter hoping he'd understand I just wanted to stay like that. He got it and just sat there holding me as I cry into the crook of his neck. I soon fell asleep still in his arms. He probably followed after.

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Hia my BEEAAAAAUUUTFUL cookies I'm just saying thank you for reading this far! Love you all and have a good whatever time is where you are! Goodbye :)

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